Hi, I just made a blog entry about my first sun gazing experience, here it is.

Well that was some positive experience!

I have a different sort of injury going on than most people do. Actually I've had 2 injuries, each one completely different. The first one was getting zapped by electricity. My optic nerve was affected, (my eyes close and blink uncontrollably). So yesterday I was on Curezone, and somehow ended up on the sungazing page. So, this morning I tried it! I got up early, went to a pretty pond nearby and caught the sun before it made it up over the horizon. I could see about half of it. 1 one thousand... 2 one thousand.... and at 10 I stopped. Wow. My eyes started blinking - short little blinks, alittle different than the blinks that i'm used to.... and i felt little SHIVERS going up and down my body, it was so happy. I stopped for a moment, closed my eyes, and got a bright green picture of the sun in retro. Then I figured OK, I looked only at a portion of the sun, so I can try again for 5 seconds. And I did, and then I closed my eyes again... this time I got a blue picture of the sun and then a burgandy-magenta colored sun. and as i started to walk, with my eyes open, i was still getting pictures of the sun in burgandy relief on the sidewalk. It was awesome.

Immediately, as I kept walking around the pond (1.6 miles around) I noticed that the colors were brighter. I was so aware of COLOR, I still am even now that I'm back home. I am an artist, I draw flowers (www.geocities.com/tgontarski) and I haven't been well enough to draw in the last 18 months. While I've been looking forward to drawing, I haven't been excited about colors lately. Today that excitement was back. I think my eyes got turned back on today... and I think my body really liked this. I have no idea what this will truly do as far as healing the thing. But... it definitely has potential. I think the electricity got the wrong message into my body - and the sun can get the right message back in. I work with a medical intuitive (ok, that's obvious from the names of my other blog entries :) and she is always talking about how the healing of my optic nerve is central to the healing of my nervous system. Well up until today, working with her was the only thing I thought would help heal this thing (supplements don't seem like they're an answer here) but today I think I found the second thing.

I know this may sound odd, and I hesitated to put it in my blog out of embarassment. But, I'll be brave and say it... As I was walking around the lake this morning, I really had the sense that I had made a new friend, the sun. I felt this very strongly. So... WOW. I am so amazed at this first experience. And it made me wonder... I wonder what staring at the moon would do?

I'm going to play this by ear, probably do 15 seconds again tomorrow, but maybe when the sun is alittle farther up over the horizon. I'm not going to increase it every day, I'll be listening to my body really, really closely to gauge if it becomes too much. I think I have more chance of burning out on this than most people do, and I truly have no interest in following this protocol to its natural conclusion - being a sun cooker and not needing to eat any food. I want to eat food every day for the rest of my life, unless I fast. But... I'm so thrilled that this seems to have potential!