HI I WAS WONDERING ABOUT SOME THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME WHEN I WAS 14 I HAD A DEEP TRAMA IN MY LIFE AT THAT TIME ; THAT I FIND HARD TO TALK ABOUT TO THIS DAY . BUT ONE THING I RECALL IS I WAS THOUGHT TO BE PREGNET AFTER MUCH UP SET I WAS SENT HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL WITH SETATIVE TO HELP ME SLEEP; I REMEMBER I JUST DIDNT WANT TO LIVE;AND SOON DRIFTED OFF TO A MORE PEASEFUL PLACE .( YOU WONT BELIEVE THIS BUT I FOUND MYSELF IN A TUNNEL, ALMOST LIKE WHAT YOU WOULD THINK LONG HOLLOW CAVE WOULD BE LIKE.I COULD SEE THE BRIGHTEST LIGHT AT THE END OF THIS TUNNEL, ON THE WAY GOING TO THE LIGHT I COULD HEAR VOICES TALKING AND SHADOWS PASSING ME , AND DOGS BARKING, AND EVERY THING SEEM TO ECHO. I DONT RECALL WHEN I REACHED THE END OF THE TUNNEL BUT WHEN I DID IT WAS AS IF EVERYTHING SPARKELED AND SHINED!! GLIDDERED, THE AIR WAS FRESH FLOWERES WERE EVERY WHERE AND SOFT BREASED BLEW. I FOUND MY SELF AT A OPENHOUSE/ LIKE WHAT YOU MIGHT SEE ON A SET OF OF A WESTERN, ALL OPEN! AND THERE IN THIS ONE WAS MY GRAND MA WILSON, SHE WAS SETTING IN A ROCKER, AND BABIES WERE ABOUT HER.THERE WERE MEN BEHIND HER AS I DIDNT SEE THEM JUST LIKE THEIR HANDS ON HER SHOULDERS OR PASSING BEHIND HER. I NEVER FELT SO LOVED OR WARM YET COOL, SO AT PEACE, SO RIGHT. SHE SAID "COME HERE CHILD DONT YOU KNOW ME. I FELT LIKE I HESATATED, BUT AGAIN PUSHED BY UNSEAN HANDS RIGHT IN FROUNT OF HER.SHE SAID COME CLOSER CHILD AND SHE HAD CRADLES IN FROUNT OF HER; AND A BABY IN HER ARMS-- I RECALL I SAID IS IT ROYS BABY; ( MY BROTHERS WHOS BABY BOY DIED AT BIRTH A FEW YEARS BEFOR>)SHE LAUGHED , AND SAID WHY NO CHILD -- I WAS AFRAID TO LOOK , SHE SAID TO ME THIS IS YOUR BABY , YOUR LITTLE GIRL; BUT THE TIME IS NOT RIGHT YET!( WHAT I RECALL NEXT IS SEEING THAT BABYS FACE, AND HUGED UP TO GRANDMA MY HEAD ON HER KNEES, SHE WAS WARING THAT WHITE APRON, I RECALL SAYING MY BABY0-- AND SHE SAID YES BUT ITS NOT TIME YET-THE WORDS SEEM TO ROLL OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD. I RECALL BEGGING HER TO LET ME STAY AND SHE TOLD ME I COULDNT I HAD TO GO BACK, I BEGGED TO STAY BUT SHE REFUSED ME . I COULD ALMOST FEEL MY SELF BEING PULLED BACK LIKE IN A VACCUME , THE LAST THING I RECALL IS HER TELLING ME IT WAS NOT THE RIGHT TIME--AND THEN SHE SAID GIVE YOUR MOTHER A MESSAGE FOR ME !! TELL HER I AM ALRIGT AND I LOVE HER. WHEN I WOKE UP I COULD STILL RECALL THIS SO VIVITLY; I TOLD FEW PEOPLE , AND I NEVER TOLD MOM WHAT HER MOTHER SAID! BUT WHEN MY FIRST BABY WAS BORN THREE YEARS LATER=== IT WAS THE SAME BABY MY GANDMOTHER SHOWED ME IN HEAVEN> DID I DREAM THIS-- NO WORDS COULD DESCRIBE THE BEAUTY OF THE PLACE I WAS AT ? GIVE ME A ANSWER THANK U