I suffer from premature ejaculation and its killing me. Ive been experiencing it since I started having sex at 15. Ive only had sex with two girls and they were/are very understanding. Im always in a relaxed atmosphere and have no anxiety when having sex. Although i do suffer from Depression and social anxiety. I have an enlarged left epydidimis and a dull constant pain from the top of that testicle to right under my ribs. I have noticed and delt with it for about 4 years now. I urinate more often then I should, about every hour, and its only around 100cc's maybe. Its a slow stream that splits around the end of urination. It feels like I am ejacualting at the start, it comes in one shot, splits in two streams and then dribbles. When I am releasing fecal matter, if I push or strain just a bit, urine will come out for as long as I push, with no feeling of urinating if that makes sense. Sometimes semen will come out as well. Its almost as if I am ejaculating semen or a valve isnt tight or something. My urine is heavy and cloudy and often sinks to the bottom of the toilet barley changing the color of the water. I think the premature ejaculation is due to something medical not mental. I have seen three different urologist and they all say nothing is wrong. Ive had 2 ultra sounds on my left testicle, all coming back negative. Ive also had a prostate exam that showed everything was normal with it and my bladder and also that I dont have a strictur. I didn't tell the doctors about my PE, should I have?
I need to know if an SSRI would help with my PE and depression. Do I have symptoms of BPH and what steps are needed to correct my problems. I just want to have a loving relationship where I can satisfy the woman and myself. Could I have started masturbating when my genitals were underdeveloped? I just don't know anymore and I desperatly need your advice.
I also have become somewhat suicidal with thoughts and tedencies. I cut myself and lock myself in my room for days not wanting to face the outside world. Feeling depressed all the time and hopelessness seems to rule my life. Any siggestions would help. I would go to a doctor/ doctor's but I am un-employed and have no insurance.
~Thank you to anyone who responds~