Tracey I have been thinking about this from the beginning. I have no problems with my mommy. To me the moon represents the female energy that comes from me and is reflected back. I am the sun, next to me (naturally not in a bad way) others (relationships) are results of projections from my heart (solar energy) they are moons absorbing my light and manifesting it, Next to God energies whether masculine or feminine are made feminine. Even biblically The most High's reflection or operating presence(Shekinah) is feminine. The sun or light of god (christ) is feminine also next to the father and does nothing unless the father instructs him, a seeming paradox since as a manifestation of light he and the father are one. I wanna get into a big reflection refraction thing but will not. So my relationships that I have focused on to bring that balance are my moons, they reflect the light of the Sun and increase in intensity proportionate to the light i shine (beacon) Red moon holds the greatest amount of solar energy which may provide some answers...So the problem I had when I arrived with my mother was really my moons or relationships which was quite apparent. The Red moon and key and access to the attic and my mother and sister preparing me food and such like red cake and white cake and many others in past are making more sense. I've been having a problem expressing myself lately hmmmmmmmm. well ok.

anthony