My wife passed away a year ago from alcoholism and I sense she is smilling and keeping an eye on me but I don't know if it is just me imagining it. I usually sense it when I am in the shower. I am married now and don't sense any jealousy but I do feel a bit guilty and sometimes I catch myself talking in my sleep to her. I feel bad about missing her when I am married to somone new but I do. I don't know why I am even writing about this but I keep seeing the forum show up and I wanted to say something to somebody about it. My wife was a terrible drunk and it killed her but I loved her more than anything. We would split up and get back togethr when she was dry but I never stopped loving her. She was so hard to live with but she is hard to live without. I reall miss her. Mostly I don't remmeber the bad stuff but she she was so wonderful a friend, I wish she could have beat that alcohol addiction. I don't know if she is haunting me or just still being my friend but it is making me all shaky just typing this. I don't guess I have any real questions but I know it is sonmething I needed to say. I love my new life and I do only I love my wife who meets me in my dreams and sometimes while I am awake. I don't want her to go away. I just want her to know how much I really love her and be able to love my new wife the same way I loved her. I think sometimes I am cheating my new wife by loving her. Sometimes I just want to die si I can be with her but I have a new family that really needs me. I am not a sad person and I am not depressed. I just needed to say something about it because everyone I talk to about it look at me like I am crazy.

What is a reading? What does it mean and what would I risk if I did one. I don't want her to go away. I am just curious about what a reading is.
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My wife passed away a year ago from alcoholism and I sense she is smilling and keeping an eye on me but I don't know if it is just me imagining it. I usually sense it when I am in the shower. I am married now and don't sense any jealousy but I do feel a bit guilty and sometimes I catch myself talking in my sleep to her. I feel bad about missing her when I am married to somone new but I do. I don't know why I am even writing about this but I keep seeing the forum show up and I wanted to say something to somebody about it. My wife was a terrible drunk and it killed her but I loved her more than anything. We would split up and get back togethr when she was dry but I never stopped loving her. She was so hard to live with but she is hard to live without. I reall miss her. Mostly I don't remmeber the bad stuff but she she was so wonderful a friend, I wish she could have beat that alcohol addiction. I don't know if she is haunting me or just still being my friend but it is making me all shaky just typing this. I don't guess I have any real questions but I know it is sonmething I needed to say. I love my new life and I do only I love my wife who meets me in my dreams and sometimes while I am awake. I don't want her to go away. I just want her to know how much I really love her and be able to love my new wife the same way I loved her. I think sometimes I am cheating my new wife by loving her. Sometimes I just want to die si I can be with her but I have a new family that really needs me. I am not a sad person and I am not depressed. I just needed to say something about it because everyone I talk to about it look at me like I am crazy.