The maya of yemaya means illusion. What you have been through in your life may seem to be unfortunate and may feel like your got stuck. Yet this is far from the truth. You have done a tremendous amount of inner work and come to a point in your journey where things you considered important no longer are. Even your ideas of what is right or wrong, good and bad, spiritual and non-spiritual are confused and are overlapping. You are heading towards a zone in consciousness where these limitations are no longer acceptable or even interesting to you. It is the no-mans-land of the soul, where belonging to someone else or things belonging to you offer not the same satisfaction than they used to. Your old life is dying off, hence the "chaos" you have experienced so far, yet your new life has not yet been birthed. Others around you cannot understand you or resonate with you at this time, so you cannot really open up to them. You are forced, in a way, to deal with everything inside of you.

This stuck feeling, though, is essential for becoming who you really are. The confused state is very precious because that is where the inner transformation takes place. Your are coming towards the end of a long and difficult journey, and you cannot even imgagine what is out there waiting for you. The last part is always the hardest, because you have to let go of everything you thought was worth working or fighting for. It is the conscious death of the old you.

The new you will live in the moment, for the moment, by the moment. Your passion will awaken you and guide you along the way. Trust that you exactly where you need to be right this moment, but don't be surprized or resist when this changes in a moment. Each moment is perfect, and life is about discovering that this is so. I ssugest that you read Freedom Fom Judgment, www.1stbooks.com. It contains codes of life that your heart recognizes and understands. Then your next steps will be much easier for you.

With blessings,
Andreas