Good point. I wrote a song several (like 25) years ago called "Gauti". Within it is a verse:

" . . . of these the paths are many for each of us is free
to choose himself the hour to wake ourself and see

that evil is but ignorance that binds us til we bleed
but deep within the heart of man therein lies the key
to the wisdom of his folly and the beauty of the tree
and the love that comes from nothing but desire and will to be "

I read many of your blog stories and my head is still spinning. Regarding your NDE, you mentioned when you will eventually die; I think it was in 2010. Does this mean that between now and 2010 something else cant take you? I think of all those people who jumped out of the twin towers and I cant imagine they all decided beforehand to do this. Why would we choose such a horrible way to go? Why wouldnt we choose to die in our sleep? I hope when it is my turn, I chose to be on a beach somewhere smoking a cigar and enjoying my favorite drink. Why wouldnt everyone choose a happy death? etc, etc, ?.............peace