Karlin,

Where to begin!?

I think you chose a good forum to post this in because, yes, I think that it's a spiritual issue first.

Why did you choose to be born into this family? (do you even believe that you chose to be born into this family?) It sounds to me like your Life Lesson is probably tied up in resolving your relationships with your family members. I know it may seem impossible, but if you open your heart to the possibility of Acceptance....perhaps your family will too...?

I have seem families go through almost exactly what you are describing. The family acts like a unit and if one part is 'screwed up' then the whole unit is....once one person is willing to Accept and Heal...you'll be amazed at how that affects the whole family and each individual 'magically' starts to grow into their healthiest selves. If you can't imagine that that can happen and you don't want to Accept them then...perhaps you'll be comin' back in a similar situation your next lifetime around! (perhaps this is why your situation seems so pointed and difficult this time because 'last' time you didn't want to Accept either....?)

I really think you should meditate on the question: why did I choose to be born into this family? Why did they choose to have ME?

If you can't heal and accept them...then, yeah, taking money from them must be eating you up (and they sure won't be respecting you for it eh?)....so 1. Get healthy and take responsibility for yourself...get a job...follow a Calling! What are your interests? Talents? Gifts? Don't waste them - use them... and 2. Stop taking money from them. 3. Accept them!

If you need some help focusing in on what your talents, gifts and Calling may be come over to the Astrology Forum or Numerology Forum. ALSO - check out the Dream Forum - you can grow in leaps and bounds by paying attention to your dreams and the messages you receive each night...

I'm rooting for you Karlin!

love Tracey