#37847
This kind of thing seems to help most people, I guess. For me, whenever I turn on "friends" or whatever it just depresses the hell out of me. The characters are so exuberant, so full of life and energy, so comfortable in their own skins. I cant keep from thinking of what a fantasy that is for me...to be that "normal," even if it is just on the surface. I have had lots of "friends" over the years, but none have lasted...they all end up seeing me for how miserable and screwed up I really am, and I stop seeing them, end up alone writing depressing shit on message boards because I secretly wish someone would give a shit before I get the balls to finally kill myself. Here I am, going on and off these bizzare no sugar/carb diets and everyone else is happy, well adjusted, eating cheesecake and icecream with walls covered with smiley pictures of happy memories, past relationships and images of what it must be like having a life.
Is it just me? The people are so GD beautiful on t.v., it's such a fantasy and people are too stupid to realize what losers they are sitting there indulging in this fantasy of pretty people and their cute little lives. The simpsons is great though.