im currently 17, female. since i was like 13/14, ive started wearing deodorant & have been pretty consious w/ my odor especially underarm, and tend to get some bo here and there, especially if im sweating. however fast forward to last year, around June 2017, my bo seem to get worse no matter what i do. every morning before class i always remembered to shower & put on antiperispirant/deo. even sometimes i would go to college earlier just so that i can go to the toilet, clean my underarm with tissue to reapply deodorant again, because i tend to smell & sweat easily.

as if that's not bad enough, since last august i realized i started to get some reactions from people, especially in subways & public places. one time, i ate some spicy noodles & hop into the shower before going out. however 10 minutes later when i arrived at the subway, people were giving me looks & some even literally moved away from me, which is so f***ing embarassing & confusing, bc i just took a shower & cant smell anything from myself. bc i was really self-conscious, i decided to get out from the train half way & went to the handicapped toilet to clean my underarms, thinking it was the deodorant that made me smell really bad. however, after that people still cover their noses & try to stay away from me. i was really confused & ended up went home crying. i even asked my dad if he smelled anything, but he said no. after that incident, i started to have more reactions from people everyday whenever im out. it got worst since October last year. ive literally tried every deodorant in the market, and even went to a imported shop that was pretty far from my home, in order to find the apprarently 'strong' deos some ppl recommended to use. ive tried everything from nivea, rexona, lemon, baking soda, acv. gilette clinical, crystal deo, lady speed stick, even perspirex & mitchum gel which dries on outer part but never dries in the mid area of my amrpit. ive tried everything & im honestly nothing has work, everything just seem to make me smell worse. im not sure if the problem is internal as well, but im pretty sure my underarm is one of the cause. problem is, i cant smell anything!! my parents never said that i smell & gets lowkey gets annoyed whenever i asked them saying i dont smell, however i always get reaction from ppl whenever im outside!

i just dont know what to do anymore. last week was one of the worst. i went to bought a cliniical deo as i was having a first day for one of my major at college. however, when i arrived there, i realized i smelled like severe bo & ppl at the back were laughing, even a guy infront of me changed his seat. worst thing, everyone including the teacher knew it was me. i felt so fkng pathetic & humiliated, that i literally skipped 2 weeks of class now. im literally too scared to go out as i dont have any deo that makes me feel clean & i dont even know if i smelled or not unless if i go public & see @ people's reactions. i just dk why's this happening to me. ive was pretty shy as a kid & have been suffering w depression, axniety & self esteem issues since i was a preteen. nowadays, i try to b more social & outgoing, however this thing just start happening. i was from a girl whos shy & quiet now becomes center of attention for the worst reason. im just too paranoid to go out of my room. im literallly stil desp of finding a deo that can at least help reduce my bo but cant find any. this issue really ruined me both mentally & physically, and at this point i just have no solution left. this really brought a toll to my dep & ive been having suicidal tendencies. i dont wanna sound dramatic but i just cant take it anymore & at this point i feel like im being cursed or smth. i deal w this issue alone, cant eat alot of foods like i used to, and cant even go out the house without ppl not minding my presence. i even took a couple showers before going out to make sure im clean only to find out people coughing & looking at me as if i smell. srry if this im writing a whole ass essay but its just mentally tiring & i feel stuck in my room feeling paranoid that i might smell if i go out, no matter how long i cleaned myself. if ur reading this though, do tell me some deo that works for you, as atm everything that ive used just doesnt work, and im alm at the end of the rope @ this point.