Dantana,
People can do hurtful things to each other. When we open up to people we love or trust, we expose ourselves to them, making it possible to love each other, but the more we open up, the more we give them the possibility to hurt us.
This is nto a bad thing, without opening up, we cannot experience life fully. When in a bad relationship, we start opening up to our partner, but if the partner doesnt respect us as much as we do them, they are capable of hurting us, even with the simplest gestures. Even things we do not know they do, but we can feel subconsciously.
Because we open up, we bare our soul, which is mostly love and respect. If this isnt mutual, we might not notice completely consciously, but we can feel it. Even simply the fact that you love someone unconditionally, but this not te be mutual can hurt, and over time, out of protective instinct we close ourselves to this hurt.
Closing ourselves, closing our soul. It is necessary to stop the hurting but when the threat is gone out of our lives, the same instinct makes us open up so our conscious will start noticing our subconscious again.
You are working through the grief. The grieff of being hurt, and the grief of losing the relationship you clearly invested heavily in.
You are rediscovering yourself. Look at yourself and how beautiful you are on the inside you are now daring to show again.
The hurt will pass, accept this as a lesson and let go of any anger, it will not help. Look at what this loss has given you, you have regained yourself.
Find people who you can open up to who will not step on your soul and value having that, and value how your past experience has given you the knowledge what it means to have these people to love.
I wish all the best of luck, I know if you stay true to your heart you will see the value of this hurt for now and place love next to it, you will overcome the hurt very soon!
Remco.
thewholedotnet