Hey guys, so I've been really wanting to go out and be more social. I just can't bring myself to go.
I tried to go out last weekend, and right as I parked in the crowded parking lot, someone passed by and coughed. I instantly started crying.. I couldn't handle going inside the store, so I just went back home and tried to sleep. I felt horrible.
So, fast forward to now, I really want to go to the library and get some books. And also do some shopping which I haven't done in years. Yes- YEARS!! It's very sad and pathetic when I think about how long it's been since I've had friends.. or gone out. I really, really want to make friends. And I know I can! But it's hard to do when no one wants to be around you long enough for you to show them your good side.
Anyway, I never see anyone on this forum talking about the stress of going out and being social and the emotional toll of being isolated all the time. So here it is.