I think I have talked a lot about my social problems because of this issue because I too have been very isolated for years with anyone rarely hanging out with me and even so in group settings I'm the third wheel. I also have no friends I would say in my lifetime, who have called me to enquire about my well being, maybe the odd one to hang out after I called them, maybe 1 or 2 but not anymore. Even today at work my coworkers were joking around and said something about not having a dangerous breeze or something can't remember unlike some people. Yes life is hard with this and I often feel suicidal. Also there was a point in my life where I probably literally went crazy. I just go out because I know I'l feel Worse staying home all by myself, I know id I go window shopping even in the morning or go to the park and get fresh air I will feel better, at least for a very short while than if I was at home alone. I also have an anxiety disorder and Depression as well. I wish you lived nearby so we could hang out.