I am wondering how Robin Williams suicide has affected people on here suffering from depression.

I also am 99% convinced the drug cocktail they put him on at the inpatient treatment center in July lead to his death in August and what you think of this article

http://www.globalresearch.ca/the-suicide-of-robin-williams-why-we-need-a-gran...

I have suffered from clinical Depression over 35 years and was intensely suicidal about 20 of these. I was on 15 different anti-depressants over a 15 year period and intently and nearly unbearably suicidal every single day for the entire 15 years I was on these psyche drugs.

This drug induced suicidal ideation was all encompassing, assailed me day and night, was extremely intense and hard to resist and it all went away within day of stopping all of the rd drugs for depression..at that time the drug were not labeled with a black box warning of the danger of suicide form taking these drugs nor did doctors know but the drug companies were getting reports of many suicides and homicides that they hid.

the last one was a dangerous drug that threw me in the hospital and then other things that lead me to deciding to stop them all.

At the time of stopping though ALL suicidal ideation I had suffered for the last 5000 plus days left me, I still did not link my almost killing myself 3 times and all this suffering with the drugs until there began to be in the media reports of it doing that to others and it then all clicked.

I felt very betrayed by the drug companies and angry at all the deaths they caused in those not so fortunate as me the latest victim being beloved Robin Williams.

When I stopped the antidepressants, I was still having daily serious life problems and still clinically depressed but no suicidal ideation for 8 years despite all that making me know it was the drugs that caused me to suffer so mcuh and almost take my life....after 8 yeas when a bunch of life crises hit me all at once and I got suicidal again but when it was not under the influence of these drugs, the suicidal ideation was very different form before when I was on all these various antidepressant drugs one at a time..it was not as intense not as all encompassing, was not there all the time, had no violent elements, was much easier to resist and left sooner. I also had some homicidal thoughts I did not act on though these were less frequent than the suicidal ones.

We now know 95% of the mass shooters were on some kind of psychotropic drugs but they are not yet labeled with this danger but thanks to the courage of the loved ones left behind in suicidal tragedies testifying before US Congress, at least the danger of suicide is now on the label to warn people before they go through the years of intense suffering as I had.

The good that came of this is my story and that I know do not trust the drug makers and rarely use their drugs and decided to not take chemo etc for my recently diagnosed aggressive cancer which I feel would have made me worst and put me at risk of serious permanent effects like brain damage and liver damage etc

When I found out my favorite celebrity for over 35 years had committed suicide, (I so liked his film, the fisher king (such a deep movie, that I saw it 25 times, 22 of them at the theater and his films were the only movies I went to the full price theaters to see always a soon as they came out) I was deeply affected and it dredged up all these feelings from the past and the present and the fear I would eventually succumb to taking my own life especially if my cancer spreads and causes a lot of pain and terror and caused a lot of reflection and fear and sadness and personal connection..

In reading a lot of comments in YouTube videos of him etc it seems to have had this deeper effect on many other people battling this illness and/or thoughts of suicide and I am wondering if any depressed people on here have felt similarly recently upon news of his death and what you experiences with drugs and natural treatments have been and if you can offer any natural cures that have helped you.

Also what you think of the article I linked to above. Do you feel medical drugs had anything to do with his death?

I also had an idea I wanted to ask how to spread it I will mention later that I was discussing today with someone earlier today. If I forget to post it maybe you could remind me when I have more time as right now came here to help someone who emailed me and just got distracted an posted this after someone responded to a post I did in this forum.

Anyhow, thoughts, reflections, help, opinions and experiences would be appreciated on what I posted and on Robin.

thanks