I am so sorry that you are having such horrible experiences. There is really no practical way to glean what might be causing the physical symptoms and anxiety.

Have you experienced some type of trauma, perhaps? I have been attempting to manage symptoms of PSTD and what you are describing sounds very much like a response to trauma.

If you feel that you you are on the edge, please, call your local mental health hotline. There could be many reasons that you are having such dramatic symptoms and anxiety. Try to keep in mind that this is a serious challenge and it may seem hopeless right this minute. But, you CAN sort this out ~ this is temporary and things will get better.

My most sincere best wishes to you and brightest blessings.

I'm feeling exactly the same.

I'm 22 and my story is quite similar to yours.

Although, I'm feeling quite down too right now, so we can talk, but I don't think I'll make you smile or anything like that.

I too had symptoms similar to yourself starting at age 15. I'm 35 now and believe that i had hormonal imbalances way back then that i have not treated until now.
Before my first period i vomited, blacked out, and became hypothermic!
My symptoms of mood swings, crying spells, anger moods...skin rashes, acne, constipation, allergies...i wanted to end it all way back then. Things seemed so hopeless to me too.

Through the years i focused on diet, which got me so far with helping with digestive symptoms and acne, but the mood swings, and all the other symptoms remained and got worse.

Try to be kind to yourself. Get as much rest as you need...you say you are exhausted...sleep as much as you need to...slow your life down as much as is possible so you can take a step back and heal.

I had to do this last year as i crashed after years of driving myself into the ground. I had always said i'm never going to stop living life until 'the gods' literally stop me from being able to walk. So that's what they did. I had no strength in my legs, couldn't care for my family, animals...couldn't think, i became a complete wreck within months. I rehomed animals...stopped toxic relationships and friendships...basically stopped all the things that made my life super busy.

I slept for 9 months. Food, drink, sleep. I mentally let go of caring about anything. I was responsible for so much before crashing, i took everything on. So my best advice would be to try to 'cut out' of life all the stuff that fills your life up and causes stress.

I would seriously recommend a hormone panel so you know what your levels are at. canaryclub.com (or .org?) offer the cheapest saliva tests online - they post you out a kit...they offer this to europeans too. Cortisol x4, DHEA, estrogens, testosterone, progesterone is one panel they do that could really show any imbalances.

I'm sorry your parents are not taking this seriously. Mine didn't too when i was 15. I left home! Not something i would recommend. Parents are difficult to talk to at the best of times but if you could ask them to talk...and ask for them to help pay for the saliva tests, the results should speak for themselves.
Try to find the strength to talk openly with them to help you. I never told my parents i was suicidal. If i had been open about the hopeless grief i was experiencing i know they would have listened. I was too scared to share with anyone at the time. It took much more strength to support myself financially at 15, pay for my own place etc. If i had used that strength to share with my parents i may have not needed to suffer for 20 more years with health problems.

I know we're all different and symptoms have many causes, but in this world of estrogenic, goitregenic foods...hormone imbalances are affecting so many people and they often show up as 'psychological symptoms', which is the downfall of many people's long road to never recovering while on psych meds because the true cause has never been looked for.

It's only my opinion that out of all tests to be carried out, i would opt for hormones to be checked out. Others have different ideas. I spent years doing cleanses, detoxes and fasts, which helped digestion mainly, but didn't change other symptoms. Cleansing won't drastically change hugely imbalanced hormone levels.

I wish i could be of more help...i really do know the hopeless lost feeling well...and i empathise with you. I tell myself when feeling that way that things will change, nothing stays the same. Please hold on to the strength you have to try to find answers, the strength which brought you here to ask for help...many here experience what you are going through so you have a place to talk freely and express yourself.

Healing wishes and hugs to you from Ireland :-)

Okay, problem solving time!!!

No money? Why not start a fundraiser to help you get funds to get well? Here's the one that my friends started for me: https://www.giveforward.com/fundraiser/ckx1/elizabethspromise
It's pretty easy to put together, then you can share it with your Facebook friends.

Once you've raised a little money, I would order a saliva panel from somewhere like Direct Labs, although you may need to find a lab like this in Europe, not sure. This is the panel that I would order from Direct Labs: https://www.directlabs.com/mobile/TestDetail.aspx?testid=499


I would also buy this book to share with your parents:
http://www.amazon.com/dp/1890572152
I'm seeing a copy as cheep as $3.15. I bet you can afford that.

Okay, that's a start... Bring us your saliva results and we can walk you through the basics. The book does a pretty good job, as well.

Hello,

Try not to get too down about what you are going through. Sometimes when we really feel stuck with a situation, we need only to open our mind and consider that it may not be what we think it is....therefore there is a solution that will work, we simply need to become aware of it.

Perhaps your digestive problems began with a lodged stone in your liver/gall bladder: i read many flushers who get those same symptoms such as anxiety and fatigue when getting a stuck stone.

And perhaps also what you have called "stress" all your life is merely your body's response to low CO2 levels in your blood. Anxiety, nervousness, fatigue, constriction, panic attacks, insomnia, adrenal response and cortisol spikes- these are all textbook symptoms of chronic hyperventilation. I highly suggest reading professor buteyko's lifetime work on the effects of blood CO2 levels on health. You will be shocked how much of what you have been going through is described there.

Adrenal function is an effect of a deeper cause.

You may also want to research "earthing". Just sleeping earthed or grounded has been proven to normalize cortisol levels. And i don't like doctors, but the advice of exercise and cutting out TV was spot on :) msg me if u got any questions.

Personally, when I have health problems I don't go to doctors..I go to herbalists. Chinese acupuncturists also do herbs...customized herbs, not just bottled pills (although they have them too). They have helped me a lot in the past

The best healing system I have ever experienced however is Ayurveda. They not only work with herbs, which are very powerful, but they will counsel you as to diet.

Last year I had a bad case of tendonitis. A doctor sent me to physical therapy...and that made me worse. After that, months of acupuncture did not help. After that the first Ayurvedic herbalist I went to gave me a little pill...that did nothing. The second one, however, put me on a whole program of various powders and got rid of it in less than a month - after nearly ten months of suffering. So don't give up. Sometimes it takes a little searching to find the right person to help you. (I don't remember how much she charged me but it was less than $200.)

On the other hand, I had bronchitis this winter after which for weeks I could not get rid of the cough. A Chinese herbalist made me a batch of tea that got rid of it in a week.

Since you live in Europe (lucky you!) I am sure acupuncturists are all over the place. I would make sure to go to one who is actually Chinese, as acupuncture and herbs are a complicated art form that that is understood and practiced at different levels of competency. You don't have to have acupuncture...which can run up a big bill, just getting one of their intense herbal "teas" (this is not regular tea by any means)should be enough, especially at your age. If you are near a "Chinatown" district in some big city, there are herb shops there where you tell them what is wrong and they give you the ingrediants to make your own tea. Usually they have to be slow cooked for hours, so making it yourself is a bit of a learning experience....

An Ayurveda practitioner might be harder to find, but you can google one in your area...and if not many of them work over the phone.

These therapies will cost a lot less than a doctor, especially after the initial consultation.

I would also suggest taking up yoga.