I'm feeling quite shaken up, and have no one to share this with. So here I go.

I'm 45, and for three months in a row my period went off the rails and I started bleeding a bit heavier, lasting 10 to 17 days each month. I'm already chronically anemic ( I was born anemic) so having my period this long pretty much sunk my hemoglobin too low, and I ended up in the hospital with heart palps, to discover that I was 5.8.

In the ER they immediately did a blood draw, and said I looked pale. I got up to go to the bathroom on my own and walked back just fine. The blood work came back in, and suddenly they acted as if I were about to die any moment. It sent me into a panic and I started to cry as they hurriedly jabbed an IV line into my vein. Once that was in place and fluids were started, I told the nurse I was going to the bathroom and that I'd be back. OH NO she yelled, and said I couldn't dare walk to the bathroom or I'd "have a heart attack and die". She was serious and refused to let me get up. When I said "I just got done walking back and forth on my own and felt fine" she got extremely nasty and told me "Well you could die".

They admitted me for blood transfusion and took me up to OB where two nurses was waiting for me. Once my blood arrived they began the transfusion and I admit I felt better and the palps immediately left. But I still felt shook up by how they ER dr and nurses acted.

Then the RN that was taking care of me in OB started a conversation with me about the OB doctor I would see on call and told me she was the greatest doctor ever and that I could trust her. She literally said "If she says you need surgery, just get it. Just do what she tells you to do because she's very smart, and she didn't just wake up and roll out of bed and decide to just be a doctor. She's skilled. So if she says to have a surgery done, then do it and listen to her".

I was really shocked to hear this coming out of a nurse. Advising me to go on and have surgery and I think she was referring to a hysterectomy.

I later met with this "great" doctor who immediately ordered a Sonogram of my pelvis, and than two hours later they took me for a constrast dye CT scan. I didn't want to do it, but I did out of fear that they had found something.

After receiving 4 units of blood I went home. Never was I so glad to be home. I felt so sick in that hospital from fear, nerves, and pressure. When I got home it was a huge relief to get out of that atmosphere.

Fast forward to my followup with the "great" doctor:

She said my CT scan was normal except a small polyp but said we needed to do a endometrial biopsy right now. I agreed to it, to see if anything is taking place.

BUT AFTER THE BIOPSY I asked her "If this comes back abnormal, what would we do?" and she said "HYSTERECTOMY".

I left the office in tears.

I already know that chemo and radiation would follow their protocol and I'm telling you all, I can't do it. I don't know what I will do, but I just cannot do that.

Anyway, I will get my biopsy results in a few days here, and I'm terrified. Prayers and thoughts please and any comments and advice are welcomed.

Researching alternative methods before having a diagnosis may seem crazy, but it's the only positive thing I can hold on to at the moment when everything else feels beyond my control.

Oh, and she wanted to put me on birth control pills to control my bleeding. Isn't that the worse thing she could have done IF I had uterine cancer?

Thank you