Any kind words would be appreciated as I am determined to have this be my last day on this earth.

Kind words are not going to do anything but feed the feeling you already have.

What you need to do is play the hand you have been dealt. Suck it up and realize there are guys that don't have a home, wife, job or anything else that are living under an overpass in a cardboard box covering themselves with newspapers to keep warm in the same depressing weather your in.

Get through this bad time in your life and you will be stronger for it.

Make it your final day on earth and you might have to come back to do it all over again, or worse.