Hello,

Here are my stats as of Saturday:
5'9
313 lbs

Over the weekend I decided I wanted to do a 30 day fast. Part of my motivation came from the fact that my church is starting a 40 day fast. The church fast is not a water-only fast, but I decided I'd use this opportunity to go on a water fast. I have fasted before. My longest was 10 days, and I lost 20 lbs. I did not keep good eating habits so I gained the weight back. My lack of spirituality and my silly focus on only losing weight contributed to my gaining it back. It was an empty fast. I should have spent more time reflecting, but I focused on the scale. This time I am endeavoring to not do that.

I want this to be a spiritual journey of self-reflection in as much as it is a weightloss journey. So, I am incorporating meditation and prayer into my fast. I am learning that there's a lot of emotional and spiritual work I have to do to truly benefit and be healed by a fast. There's a reason I am at this high weight, and it can't just be because I love food. I'd like to get to the bottom of that issue, and I'm hoping this fast will help.

I have not weighed myself since Saturday, and did not officially start fasting until Monday. I think I will weigh tomorrow morning (Wednesday) and see how I'm doing. Please keep me in your thoughts. Thanks.