So I have been trying to have a possitive attitude , but am feeling so physically ill that I just don't know how anyone can live like this. It is torture having my kids seeing me like this and I am and have been mising out on their lives and it is tearing me a part. I was sleeping wonderful and waking up with no anxiety but pretty fatigued. Then I slept like crap last night and woke up with a little anxiety and have felt wretched all day. I feel like my body is on fire and especially my brain. Does anyone get this sensation? Like you brain is on fire? I had nausea this morning and again can't stop crying. I don't get it, I don't necessarily have anxiety that has seemed to stop. But do you think that maybe it is coming out as crying outbursts now? I am taking supplements and tolerating them well but that feel I have made much progress. I get two or three semi decent days and then crash. I hate going to sleep at night because I am afraid of what tomorrow will bring. My son has started being fearful of everything and I am afraid this is effecting him in a bad way, how could it not! (It has been going on to a lesser degree for two years)I have been seeing a therapist but not frequently as I have my kids out of school all summer, trying EFT but not much success. Think I need more practice. I have never wanted to die so much in my life, and it scares me because I never thought I would ever think about leaving my children but I have to talk myself into going on every day. Have any of you felt this physically and mentally awful (I am pretty sure I am not alone in feeling this way) and can you tell me how do you cope? Physically how does it affect you? Mentally how do you cope? Do you wake up with dread every day? Did these things become more manageable and better as time goes on? Sorry I am just reaching for hope, I m sure you all have covered this a million times. I am just not coping very well and I thought I was a pretty tough cookie. Of course I have also been through this before, just different, but equally as traumatic two years ago so I think I am just worn out with the hope and faith thing. Thanks!