To all the people I've let down. I'm so very sorry.

in my heart, I wish more than anything to make you happy, to meet your expectations for a good human being.

I have limitations. I'm working on myself, it's a painful process of purification. I'm sorry if I act carelessly, unlovingly, selfishly, ignorantly......I don't mean to push you away, I really just need time for myself right now. in silence. this is the only way for me to get better.

I desire to be with you on this journey. and I am in spirit. I just can't be physically participate with you in life right now. Please forgive me.