Hey there Prayer25,

I know exactly how you feel. I've been hospitalized three times for severe depressive episodes and suicide attempts. And I finally figured out that I am the only person who makes my life miserable or livable. I've encountered all kinds of hatred; people spitting at me, incessant coughing from family members and strangers, horrible evil death glares, anonymous notes at work on my locker, and finally the most hurtful; applause when I got off of the train. Stick and stones didn't really work for me; but one day someone told me that that people can only hurt you if you let them(kinda the same) I guess:) I don't let peoples ignorance and boorish behavior destroy the good person I am. Just today my father decided he was going to have coughing fits over and over even though I was no where near him the majority of the day. And it never bothered me once, it used to drive me crazy! I realize I cant change people, only myself. I hope this helps. P.S. I will most certainly keep you in my prayers:)