I'm really hoping someone on here can give me some direction as to where to start...I'm so desperately depressed and tired and am having trouble coming up with a game plan.

After studying obsessively for months, I've come to strongly suspect I have pyroluria and mercury toxicty and some kind of urinary tract/kidney infection to boot. I've submitted my hair for analysis and have ordered the urine poryphorins test Andy Cutler & Boyd Haley recommend for mercury toxicity as well as undergoing a series of tests for nutritional and toxic elements ordered by an N.D. The results of the tests she ordered should be back next week, but it's taken weeks to get the tests, collect the samples and wait for them to come back.

Anyway, what I'm so confused about is where to start in my detoxification...up until the past couple of months, my diet has not been good and I drank a ton of diet sodas. I was on antidepressants for about 6 years and although they helped a lot the first couple of years, after that, things started going downhill.

I decided a couple of months ago to start the TrueHope program of micronutrients and have been weening myself off medication -- I'm currently on a low dose of a narcotic pain reliever and am trying to finish weening off that, but I feel so horrible that I don't know that I can carry on. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this either.

Because I have so many symptoms of pyroluria, it seems to make sense to treat that with at least p5p B6 and zinc and see if that helps, but what concerns me is the zinc -- the one doctor who seems to have made a strong connection between pryluria (or as they call where he lives, HKU, I think), Lyme disease and mercury toxicity, says I have to address the mercury before I can address the pyroluria, but of course, the problem with that is that chelating all the mercury out of my system can take well over a year and I simply can't wait that long to feel better...I really don't think I have it in me to keep going like this for that long.

Cutler seems to think it's safe to take up to 100mg zinc before and during chelation, but this other doctor says zinc will just stir up the mercury until you've undergone at least substantial mercury detox prior to adding it.

What's been your experience if you've added substantial zinc to your regiment before and/or during the early days of chelation? I'm supposed to get 4 rather small fillings out in about 10 days, so obviously I'm looking to find out what I can take prior to Amalgam removal as well as immediately after Amalgam removal.

Another thing that concerns me greatly is that Cutler says to expect your symptoms to increase substantially immediately after removal, and that really scares me. I'm at the very bottom of the pit I've been slipping into over the years, just barely functioning, and if I get worse, I honestly don't know how I'll live.

I'm trying to clean up my diet (stopped drinking all sodas, eating mostly fresh fruit, nuts and protein although I do eat some occasional wheat) and shoveling fistfuls of the Truehope supplements in my mouth 3x/day, along with various and sundry other supplements (C, D, EFA's, CoQ10) at other times of the day...most of my days are spent researching on the computer and writing in my supplement diary every couple of hours, recording whatever I'm swallowing at that point.

I realize I need to do a variety of cleanses to clean out all the toxins I've built up in my system over the years, but I don't know where to start and how to incorporate all that into my current regiment.

As unappealing as they are, I'm thinking seriously about trying a few coffee enemas to start with as it seems like that would interfere the least with all the supplements I'm taking, but I don't know how much they'll help and I really dread doing them.

Can someone help point me in the right direction? The only hope I have right now is that the naturopath will recommend some souped up neurotransmitter precursors that will help my mental/emotional state some, which could shore me up enough to undergo the grueling detox process. I've tried my own regiment of amino acids in the past (and currently take fairly high doses of a broad-based amino acid complex) without success, but I'm hoping her custom recommendations will help.

To top things off, I haven't slept well in at least 6 months -- most nights, I sleep 4-5 hrs, though sometimes it's only 2 hrs, despte taking 4.5mg/melatonin each nigh (I'm afraid if I take more, it will increase my depression).

Anyway -- can someone start me in the right direction? The list of things I need to do to regain my health seems so overwhelming at this point and my mental faculties are so reduced at this point that I can't seem to figure it all out.

Can someone help me?