powerray
Hi, Chiron,
I just wanted to write because I have appreciated your comments (you have great sensitivity and depth; knowledge, too) and wanted to ask you if you were still planning a new fast - and to let you know I am starting a fast as of today, Monday 5/31. It's the first time I have set out to do a pretty long fast. I say 40 days is my goal, but I don't want to make myself feel overwhelmed -- it is tricky to motivate myself. I think the thing I need to concentrate on is getting through the first several days, with, for me, the boredom/bleakness of that. I know it gets easier after a few days both physically and (surprisingly) mentally. Last fast I hadn't really intended to go long-long with the fast and on the 5th day I was suddenly , inexorably, irresistibly compelled to go to the store and eat, though I (1) was still in detox and moreover (2) was coming out of the detox and getting better and could easily have gone several days longer (at least)... that's how my anxiety/food-addiction works sometimes :). I was rather shy to post about it here on the forum.. I was kind of afraid of getting -- I don't know -- discouraging remarks -- or, I just needed to process the whole event on my own. 4 1/2 days was actually a real breakthrough for me! Anyway -- for this fast -- I've gotta get some support and something light to focus on! Something to prevent my thoughts from going to anxiety and then seeking food for relief! ....Anyway - I just wanted to make contact!
Best,
Powerray