Gandhi said, "The world has enough for everyone's needs, but not enough for even a single person's greed."

A child would just eat candy every meal and chicken nuggets if they could choose their meals. Parents and Religions look for ways to tame their wild out of control children. "Hell is a 'place' where bad children go" is used overtly and covertly by some parents and religions as a means to tame their children. Children tend to imitate the behaviors of their parents and their parent's religion. If a parent or religion creates a fear and punishment based system of educating their children or followers then those children and followers are likely to project those fears onto others. Pre-NDE, I had a distinct religious understanding that 'God' loved good little 'saved' children but hated bad little un-saved children so much so that he would burn them alive in hell forever... and still... when I prayed before I was ever 'saved,' I knew the being I prayed to loved me. It is that double minded thinking that is the poison of my own religion. I came back from my NDE with a different understanding of 'saved' We souls return to bodies until we get enough of us 'saved' to stop falling into this particular dimension of time where we will certainly die.


Returning from my NDE, I would attempt to sit through sermons where the teacher would start teaching their followers that God hated Muslims, Atheists, Homosexuals, Alcoholics, Homeless People... and would punish the 'unsaved' and send them to hell; they would then say that if they were only 'saved,' they would go to heaven when they died... Post NDE, The I would stand straight up and walk out...

In my NDE, I saw orbs of light who held very very different beliefs than me and knew that they were still made out of love and God loved them more than anyone could ever imagine.... and still... I would read wonderful sayings in my religious texts and see exactly what I saw in my NDE but the next line or even in the same sentence there would be words that could not possibly be talking about the same God I met in my NDE. I understood, reflecting on my NDE, religion can be useful if it guides one to love others, heal others, have empathy and compassion for others and love one's self enough to not eat just candy and chicken nuggets not because one will go to hell if they don't but because every moment in our life review where we are loving to ourselves and others is a gift from the light that if we receive it is 'saved' and is added to who God=Love is... If one reads religious texts and believes God in heaven is responsible for all of the hate attributed to him then they simply do not understand how much the God of my understanding loves us... but the law of saved or unsaved has nothing to do with a religion... It is surrendering one's self to love...

I say all of this but I met a lesser aspect of God in my NDE. There are those who do not go all the way to the light. They go to a dark place where spirits that clung to us in our life fall away from us.. they may see a light... but then they decide to return to their bodies with stories of 'hell' or some place where there is no 'love.' Some just see darkness and assume death is the end of their life... I understood, from my NDE, death is a process and those who have NDE's may go all the way to the light before returning and some will choose to experience only darkness... and for me I chose both... I saw how darkness and light are mixed together in time but if one goes to the highest levels of heaven... that all darkness is removed from one's soul and that part of our soul does not have to return over and over.


Once one surrenders to loving others and themselves then they may change their life into one of service to others and also learn to stop and smell the roses along their path in their life. If we do these things and our soul is satisfied with the love they gave and received then it may no longer feel a need to get back in that line and fall into a body again. For some souls, it may only take one trip and a short life to be satisfied with their 'saved' gifts to offer 'The Light' while others may take a hundred lives to finally end their falling into this type of partial .333% hell that is the dimension of time. I also understood that there are higher and higher heavens where we can go to if we still want to continue motion by experiencing ourselves as separate from the total oneness that is 'The Light.' I doubt that I will be ready to be completely still if I were to die today but I hope that I have gotten to a point where I no longer crave to fall in this barbaric dimension of time with so much .333% darkness and move on to more subtle dimensions of love.

If we want to experience even greater dimensions of darkness, I believe some few do, souls are allowed to do that but I did not in my NDE. I want to get as much of my life into the next world so I don't have to do this one again. I hope I am satisfied to end this dimension of war and strife. I long to move on to higher and higher love. I just hope that rascal soul of mine will not want to keep dropping back into pain bodies. Souls are kind of like children and Sugar though. This dimension allows a soul to grow in huge ways where in other dimensions growth is more subtle. I hope, when I go through my life review again, my soul will quit being so greedy and realize that this world has its gems but this body would prefer it move on toward more subtle lessons of love and less angst to get its lessons learned.