if your eating really well otherwise you are probably sensitive to the harshness and density of it as well as hormones, slaughter etc. personally i think it is a mixture of everything. I have been eating healthier and i went to the movies and had one of there hot dogs and puked the whole thing up when i got home. the next meat i had was in a cup of noodles type thing and i puked that up too. but i have been able to handle those things at other more unhealthy times

interesting really interesting!
i had gone back to red meat after 6 months or so not having it,

i felt as if i had over fasted and was dying and needed it,
this all actually started with me having a dream while frutarian that i was talking to a responsible farmer and he said his meat was organic and clean etc and there was a cow cut in half but still alive and i felt a great craving for beef when i awoke and ate it from then on!

but anyway, my recent dream just a few nights ago after a day of organic sirloin and such, involved some people who ive encountered in my life being revealed as evil reptile hybrids who were all in on a lie to keep my largely human self a prisoner of thought and such.. then one old friend saved me who i identified as human.. strangely there were dozens of people who i have known from ALL OVER in this dream and most of them had this evil reptile side..
then i found myself the leader in a war, as me and some men with wooden torches marched on an army of reptilian beings while goat-men [goats head and feet but mans body] roared and made hellish sounds and we fought both of them, my job as the leader was to rally the men even though i felt we were all absolutely *****ing ourselves in the dead of night against evil beings,

my dreams are most often serene and this was wicked and evil and vivid! felt so real.
i am so torn as well, spiritually, on meat or no meat. there are only apples in season really in england now.. i am so thin.. i do not want to make animals suffer! i love animals sometimes they seem more human than people to me but i get sick on excess oils and avocadoes and dates from all over the world! i am a big boy now, a grown man almost but i want to cry sometimes because meat seems to prop me up and yet i do not want to be reliant on death:(
i hear all the words of this guy and that guy, MH and then i think of ancients who ate meat, sometimes raw and of good quality and organ meats just like i have done and to some extent have started doing again, i try to honour animals and pray for them and thank them and hope they have spirits as i feel they do and that these spirits will find a new body but i am soooo torn! what is correct?! i feel great but bloated on frutarian, i tried sprouts the lot, i eliminated practically everything over the course of my still short life and i know that i get stomach pains with too much fruit in winter unless it is detox but i am frail:( i want to feel like a lion and meat gives me that if i watch my intake.. it was once all i ate, albeit in the form of mcdonalds and such which made me ill and got me on the health and spiritual ride which i am so nourished by and grateful for and gave me a sense of ultimate home and appreciation for nature! i love the sun and the moon and the animals and creativity how do i ever find if meat is correct:( i hope some ancestral spirits or someone similar can guide my intuition and help me find the way...
but yes, very vivid dreams on the meat could be the DMT in the animals bloodstream i was thinking?