Today I have been busy again, I just cannot seem to find time to just lay down and relax, but I know it is imperative!
I had went to Walmart and bought a bunch of stuff to set up an aquarium that I bought yesterday. I was really excited to get it going because I LOVE the water and fish, I am a Pisces and I have always enjoyed being near water. I figured that having this running would give me a spot to sit and read and just relax while I gaze at the little fishes and listen to the water fall from the filter. So I managed to get everything from the store but was a little stressed with the variety because I wasn't quite sure exactly what I was doing to be honest, so after a few calls on my cell to various people, I got everything I needed checked out and came home. Carrying everything inside I felt very weak, but no.. I didn't want to sit down. I cleaned the rocks and tank, set everything up put stuff together etc etc. Then when I bent down to plug the lights and pumps up, I nearly fell over standing back up!
I know that anytime we come from a laying or sitting or squatting position that the blood has to stabilize in our body to prevent us from passing out, I know this! But still it really scared me for a second! I got extremely warm, and fuzzy, and everything darkened. I squatted back down and held onto the wall until it passed, then stood up again very very slowly, walked right to my office and said out loud, "Okay Jackie, time to chill" So thought I would post a little message before I take my hard headed stubborn butt to bed for an hour or so.
I KNOW I need to be taking it easy, but I am just so stubborn, I feel like I can do everything I need to without restraints.
This fast has been so different than any of my 10 day fasts, could this one be producing more detoxing BECAUSE of my previous fasts??
This will get worse before it gets better I am sure, but just wanted to document my mishap on the boards.
I am making a vow, right here right now... I WILL be slowing down from here on out. I can feel the true work of my fasting working within me, and I need to allow my body the rest it needs to accomplish what it intends to do.
Off to bed, thanks for reading...