Hi RG,
I have so much empathy for you and the loss you
are feeling. It must be overwhelming and over time
the waves of grief and feelings of undeserved
hardship will keep knocking you off your feet. In
this times, know that you are appreciated and loved
for the care and dedication you give to your family
and the clients worldwide who you have helped. It
is very difficult in any given moment to see the
bigger picture and one always wonders what one would
do if suddenly everything behind them disappeared or
was taken from you in a catastrophe. It is hard to
say any given emotion is appropriate or inappropriate
but that if you keep your focus on ahead, or like
you say, eating the elephant, one bite at a time,
it is easier than allowing the elephant to eat YOU~!
For me, it was always, one step at a time, or one
day at a time. If the thought of a whole day became
overwhelming, then I shortened it to one hour or the
next five minutes. There will be many opportunities
to allow others to reach out and comfort you and
for you to be the man who stands strong in the winds
of change and thrives in the end. I see you as that
strong, patriarchal man. Even if, in moments, you
find yourself facing sadness and anger, ultimately,
you have so many who care for you and what you are
doing, including your family. The "stuff" of life
will gather again and the clients will come again.
Out of the dust and ash a new vision will arise.
I pray for you that like sap rising, your strength
will nourish you in the times you need it the most
and in times others lean on you, that there too,
your strength will support them. Do not worry about
the past, the emails, the orders...this too shall
pass and when you again open your cyber doors for
business, a line will be waiting, and for those
who know you, they will have an understanding for
what you have just been through.
I wish you the best for the future and for new
growth and success.
Blessings, gratitude, & prayers,
Zoe
-_-
ps. a final thought...my loss did not equal yours
but I wanted to share that I did once stand behind
a fire line at a gallery and watch years of my work
go up in flame...so this is why I really feel for
you at this time. I did survive but it does change
you. I appreciate my own strength more for sure...