Today was horrible. I just didn't feel right. I was so tired and all I wanted to do was sleep. I know I am detoxing bad, but I haven't given up.

I went over to my friend's house for their 4th of July cook out. Of course everything smelled good to me. But I didn't eat anything at all. I had several people encourage me to eat something but they could see that I was really myself.

I don't feel so horrible that I want to eat. It is just that I am detoxing and things are changing. Burning fat, my breath smells horrible no matter how many times I brush it. That kind of thing. Even if eat something right now, I am sure it won't make me feel any better either. So I am sticking with it.

I think I only drank about 30 or 40 oz of water. I think I might need to drink more than that to flush the ketones out of my systems. That is what is probably making me feel a bit ill.

I didn't do much walking to day. Just sitting and lounging around alot. I have been sleeping a lot today. Naps here and there. Just resting on my water fast. Wow, this Water Fast is really kicking my butt this time. Sometimes I wonder if I can go on or not.

I am a bit depressed if that is what you call it. It is almost like a bit of sadness, yet numbness that I just can't place. I know today was Person A day off, but he didn't call. Therefore, did't want to spend time with me. Yet Person B asked me repeatedly about going to the fireworks with his daugther and I turned him down. Mostly because I wasn't feeling the great.

I guess I am wondering myself if would have been happier spending with Person B rather then with a couple friends. I never got to spend many holidays with Person A. He never let me in his inner circle much. I just wonder why I miss him.

Well day 11 is almost hear and I am happy and God has been sharing alot with me. I am becoming more humble and receptive to Him. And my thoughts of Person A is kind of fading away. I don't know if it is just because of the fast or if it is for good.

I hope everyone here is doing well and had a wonderful 4th of July. Big Beat, you keep it up! You are doing GREAT! And everyone else too. Please help me keep with it. I am struggling myself, but I know it isn't time for me to end my fast. God will tell me when. I just hope it is soon. LOL.

YOu can all do it. I believe in you all!