fledgling
I read the above with interest, and I may be able to work this into my own protocol.
Wondering if you were still around, so that I could reply, and you might see it, I went to your posting profile, and happened to read your post on Catholicism.
It broke my heart.
(I was raised by an atheist, so I have never been able to follow any church's teachings.)
But, to have ones sense of comfort and hopefulness pulled out from under them must be devastating.
I am so sorry this happened to you, and to anyone else. No one deserves that.
I hope that all the beautiful things in this world, in this universe, and within you, sustain you...rebuild your sense of trust.
My very best,
Fledgling