Hi, All

I've had such an amazing week! Earlier in the week I touched on an emotional subject and realized I was still carrying around some sorrow from the past. It centered around 'I'm seperated from my family/tribe'. I released emotions around it and saw how that deeply held thought/belief was causing me to act in certain ways, usually more out of need and desperation a bit. I realized that this isn't true (I'm not seperated from my family/tribe). 'The Work' worked me...I just realized that! I didn't fight it and it lifted beautifully.

Then, later in the week, some less-than-honorable behavior that I had been hiding was revealed. This is a much reinforced pattern for me and centered around being afraid to share what I think/feel for fear of others reactions. After some contemplation and self-honesty, I made realizations that I was being controlled in this situation - exactly by my fear, the exact thing I didn't want!! I was fighting 'being controlled', so I controlled myself with negative consequences.

I have repeated this process on being afraid a few times but now I feel I really see what's going on and I strongly desire to let that go...so I have. And I see that this is how it works with most of us - we keep releasing, one part at a time, one vibrational level at a time, until it's all gone. Or, maybe better said, until we are detached. And then it's not part of our experience so much any more.

What helped a lot with the honesty is Debbie Ford's "Dark Side of the Light Chasers". I've read this years ago and still reference it from time to time when I feel I am having resistance to it. It is great at releasing, that's the whole point. And I realized that it also has concepts and processes with the same goals as Abraham and LOA teachings.

My husband and I went to a workshop on 'The Work' yesterday. It was amazing! Neither of us had done the work and we both volunteered as 'demos'! For my 'work', I choose an issue with one of my children. I had incredible realization that I was doing the exact thing I was judgmental of, and how this was pushing us further apart. Ouch!!! Then the work brings you back to centeredness, and I realized the Turnarounds are actually your rockets of desire and can actually be used for your visualizations. In fact they are virtual reality! I love it! It's all concise! Actually Ford's work does the same...it's also concise!

I got so much relief from doing the work yesterday. My husband also did the work but he did it on judgments of me. He was very apprehensive at first. I didn't mind, I told you I really let go of that issue :) and I really wanted him to find relief through the work. Well, he did! It was a very touching experience for us to experience the work on each other...with me listening and him expressing and listening. He had some incredible realizations too, seeing what he was doing and seeing what he wanted. He is already consciously evolving and doing the work yesterday increased that exponentially! A few people there also appreciated seeing this process between a married couple. So something that would potentially set us back again actually brought us closer together, once resistance was released.

These past few days I've been able to realize how much these beliefs and old stories really can hold us back. How can I welcome abundance in every area of my life when I'm holding big huge walls up to block it from coming in? Walls of 'my family is uncooperative' or 'I have to hide what I think/feel'?

I see how I let go of these walls, little by little is how it's been done and how I prefer, I allow receiving more and more of my natural abundance.

It's already been happening, don't get me wrong, I have a lot to appreciate, yet I have that much further I want to expand. I have a lot waiting for me in vibrational escrow and by God, I will allow myself to experience it! :)

Hooray for releasing! Hooray for relief! Hooray for allowing our abundance! Hooray for freedom!! ;)

Love
Lori