It was a loooooong time ago when I stood out under
the stars and told my kid the time would come when
people would say the moon was made of green cheese
and that as long as she knew that it was not true,
she was obligated to stand up for truth even if it
meant all the people who said it was made of green
cheese hated her and might hurt her because she was
speaking truth instead of supporting lies...
I am willing to die for the sake of truth. Probably
will. I am willing to die to represent hope. I have
a "bar" in my mind and I know that, for me, truth
and my word is what I value over everything else.
I actually came to a point in my life where I most
likely manifested this scenario and essentially lost
everything since I would not tow the line and parrot
the lie which was what everyone else agreed on. I
can live with myself though having supported my
integrity and that is much more important to me than
anything. My kid was sitting in our car with me trying
to say, its just a little lie. One lie mama and you can
change everything. Everything would be okay. I had to
tell her that it would not be okay with me. I would
always have to live knowing I lied and I would not
be able to do this. I would rather lose everything
and be the only person willing to tell the truth.
It was a Sophie's Choice sort of thing, but if I had
to do it all over again, I still would. Nothing to me
personally is more valuable than my word and my friends
know I am good on that, and thus, when I pass to the
heavenly fields, I go through the gate on my own
merit and not because I faked my way....
My kid is older now and finally I think she understands
and hopefully it will be the legacy which she will value
most...you can have every earthly comfort and if you
do not have integrity, who will stand with you against
the evils of the world. It is a battle, personal and
Universal. I've enlisted with the forces of Light...
you can ask me hard questions and waterboard me and
my story will still be the same...ggg...
blessings,
Zoe
-_-