Since I've first heard about the MC I've done it on and off, only ever truly succeeding for 11 days. Right now I know in my heart I want to last longer and I know the road will be tough because of my detox symptoms always seem to get the best of me BUT I am going to take one day at a time. I know that I will always be a larger woman or is that me holding on to the wall that I hide behind now? I look at my body and my past and it matches. I started gaining weight to protect me when I was in an abusive relationship and now I stay overweight to protect myself from being hurt not just physically but really any level. I'm holding on. Ok so one day at a time. I will tear this wall down. I will be a healthy size that fits my height. I will no longer build walls and I will let people in. I will let myself in. I keep thinking about goals. What do I want out of this? Well I know that I need to be at most 150 pounds. I weighed this in the Military, it fit my frame and I carried a lot of muscle. I still have that muscle especially on my legs. My excess body fat loves my stomach. I don't anymore though. Another goal is not having to use my inhaler. I want to be able to not feel like I'm out of breath all the time and I want to actually run with my boyfriend. Ideal goals are to do this cleanse for at least 15 days. I would love to make it to 30. I pray I will make it to 40. I want a change. I dislike being addicted to unhealthy foods. I am going to change.
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