This is my 12 step program......
Date: 2/17/2006 7:48:51 PM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 2463 times
So I write this really great blog the other day, I think I was at my lowest point of my fast, it was my 10th day, as I go to publish it..I loose it!I had no brain energy to start over but today is better..=)
I am on day 12 of a 30-40 day fast whatever my body can handle..I decided to blog my progress because this is round two for me....to cleanse my body and loose weight. I remember NOTHING of last time and I don't want to have to work this hard to loose the weight, so I would like to be able to look back at my ups and downs of fasting and remember what the days bring. Here's a briefing on myself, OHH a couple of years ago I was overweight by about ohh 50 lbs (yikes), I was never a heavy person so this wasn't a Plague of mine for years, I think it was a mixture of kids, age and poor eating. I was introduced into "cleansing" and I was open and ready to go, I started off with the MC went into a juice fast and within 2 months I had dropped most the weight. I looked good, felt like a million bucks, in fact I was in love with the natural feeling and the light and empty feeling you get along with it..I kept the weight off for sometime, but i fell back into my old ways, man what was I thinking. I guess it was the root of all evil for america the ,drive through, makin the life faster, that I feel back into. Now once again I have gained 50 lbs...HA HA man what a mess for my poor body.
I started off with the MC..Got a start in Nov, lost 15 lbs. Then I did one in Jan, went from that into the JF....I took 2 week break before hand (eating all healthy and organic) Now I am on day 12 of the JF. I am having hard days, lately I am feelin really tired.....kinda grumpy too. The most stand out thing here in the 12th day is I am NOTTT at all able to drink a veggie, which is weird becasue I love them juiced, but my body is wanting nothing but fruit, the thought of a juiced veggie..makes my tummy turn. I know I know all fruit is not good, but right now I am listening to my body and am hoping it's a small faze. However becasue of the lack of veggie, my lax teas don't produce much in the AM. SO far I have lost about 10 lbs, I work out ALOT and I drink a ton of water. I want to get everything I can out of this so I hope I am not forgetting anything. I had to drop the SWF real early in the JF haha like the 1st day becasue I threw that suc*** right back up. SO I am doing enemas in the morning...ok ok I lie like every other morning. I am about to pick me up some oxypowder something to help me along. I am really hungry this 12th night and found myself watching the food network, my couch was soaked where I was sitting I drooled all over it....but there is no way I am giving up. I can't. It means alot to me to loose this weight....AAAGAIN and I am not going to let myself down, I just don't ever want to work that hard. I just want to maintain. I did learn that my body doesn't like meat, because once I started eating meat again...(I dropped meat last time and went vegan/vegetarian) I gained all the weight back....
I am hoping tomorrow will be a much better day, I hope I will want to drink the veggies....i'll have to figure that one out..
and last but not least, I am dedicating my blog to the movie Super size me. He was such a great eater, had a vegan cheif as a girlfriend and looked so healthy. 30 days of mickey d's and he was grumpy, had gained weight, didn't have that glow about him. Just lost himself. This is exactly what I did to myself, and now I am back to reclaim myself. I remember exactly what it felt like to eat that way, and yes there are times a fat cheesburger with goooy cheese and a supersize fry with salt......oh sorry I am back there are times I want that....but I remember how unhappy a person I was having a processed body and the lack of energy and glow I possessed isn't worth it. I am happier, I am cleaner, I am empty and I am lite and boy is that a feeling. I hope I can help one person to not make the same mistake, this is a part of who I am . It's a lifestyle not a diet.
Well this is 12 days of feelings in one. I am the only one in my family or friends to live like this, so i use the support of the CZ and the great people here. It's nice to blog my feelings....so I can look back
off to bed, hope tomorrow brings more veggies, less grumbles and lack of saliva
Happy juicing, Melanie
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