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Slowing it down--healing thoughts
Slowing it down--healing thoughts
Date: 1/13/2015 9:54:11 AM ( 9 y ) ... viewed 951 times
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Slowing it down--healing thoughts
Garden management journal
7:35 am
Jan 14 Tuesday 2015
I went over the top yesterday and for part of the day threw in the towel. There was just too much on my plate.
Lurrae listen to me on the phone early in the morning. There was a part of me that enjoyed speaking and being heard. There was a part of me that did not want to get off the phone because I felt safe in a very unsafe world.
Lurrae and I haven't talked for a while. I expressed the difficulty I am having coming to a decision about undergoing surgery to get rid of a kidney stone that is almost an inch in size, 22 mm. The idea has also been planted in my head that this is not a good time for surgery. That was planted by a powerful mentor who understands natural healing and energy work.
I'm experiencing some abandonment issues because since we spent quality time together I have not heard from him. It's well over a month. I can understand that he is very busy. I don't imagine it's anything personal that he hasn't been in touch. However, there's always that sense of self doubt. My Health Concerns are too much for me. I'm the one that needs to unravel this, even though I have some extraordinary health advisers and friends on my team.
It's important to feel that we have others who support us as we go through healing crises of one kind or another. It's important to feel we have a health net as we go out on a limb. We need health practitioners on our team we trust.
Being challenged to my limits is par for the course right now.
Job's Tears is my Totem Seed Now
Job's Tears on the Train Track
The Message of My Job's Tears Card:
There's a Legend Told
about a Man--
who Lost all he had.
He planted his Tears
They grew into Sees,
Seeds of Job's Tears.
The seeds said,
Plant Your Dream.
He did. His Dreams
came True.
So Sow in Tears!
Reap in Joy!
I simply have to except that the seed I have chosen that represents this moment of time is Job's Tears. I call this the seed of life fulfillment. It is also a seed that represents the biblical story of Job. His life turns out well after being incredibly challenged.
Job, a prophet in my eyes, is Is tested by adversity. He is a favorite of God. He has some severe moments but he constantly rekindles Faith.
ediing…
In my youth, decades ago, I I was told by an intuitive that I was scribe on the book of Job. I worked for Melchizedek , a holy man who is said to have lived more than 900 years. Genesis calls Melchizedek "king of Salem", traditionally taken to be the name for Jerusalem prior to the Binding of Isaac, according to Wikipedia.
Slowing it Down
Monday, January 12 was a day of severe testing. My first call that got to me was from State Farm insurance. They reported that they finally received the photos I had sent near a month ago. How frustrating! The agent reported he had made an error and forgot to tell me that he hadn't received the photos.
He also told me that I now have two points against my driving record. I was in a car accident in the enchanted Garden Mobile. My insurance, according to my agent's office, will likely go up as much as $19.00 a month.
My 68 VW van, I call the Enchanted Garden Mobile, I have taken great pride in that vehicle. It had suddenly become a weapon of possible destruction. I keep reliving the incident. I was at fault. I turned right through a green light through a crosswalk. I did not see a young man on the bicycle who was riding in my direction until he was so close to me I could not avoid hitting him. The incident could have been worse, but in an instant my belief that I was a safe driver immune to possible accidents changed For three years I have driven the EG Mobile more than 1600 miles to the National Heirloom Expo. I have been living in the experience that I accomplished something really impossible, taking the 68 VW van on the road for more than 1600 miles round trip from San Diego to Santa Rosa.
Taking supplements
I was capable of driving the journey through using a natural anti-inflammatory that I highly recommend as a substitute for ibuprofen. However this wonderful anti-inflammatory gave me a sense of energy that was beyond my years or present state of health.
There is a concept into health called final force or Chi.
The ancient Essenes appeared to be masters of vital force. In other eastern traditions the vital force is named by other names.
We can access this natural energy by health practices we do.
We are compelled to exercise or consciously sit still, consciously moving and doing other practices to access the vital force.
It's breaking a law of nature to gain access to more energy by simply taking a pill. I do not believe that supplements can replace the whole building practices that we need to do in our own behalf. Supplements are a great gift of science and knowledge. My mentor Dr. Bernard Jensen was a master at supplements. He used these magic bullet to shift the attitude and mental outlook of a person who was low energy. However his balanced daily regimen was based on doing health practices, He used the supplement to help a person see they could feel better but he knew nature had the remedies that a person needed to get to know.
It takes slowing down. It takes telling the truth to ourselves. It takes true learning and changing our life and lifestyle to understand the health practices that car access vital forces.
Organizing my paperwork
I really need to organize some of the papers that the hospital sent me.
I have to have faith that I can meet the challenge of my life now.
I'm living in a remarkable place that I have empowered with the name called the Enchanted Garden.
It requires a lot of work for a small group of people to live together.
It's a constant challenge for me to take care of myself and also take care of the house.
We had a remarkable house meeting last night.
I expressed myself well. The meeting ended for me with the shock that the organizer of the meeting plans, and has intended to move to a different place. This info was not naturally forthcoming. that he planned to move. It came upon an inquiry that I initiated.
I I have a number of feelings to process about this, however bottom line I will have to except that he will be moving. This will mean another new housemate needs to move in.
The housemate search will have to begin again on top of everything else on my plate.
Is my health system working?
Last Thursday I was so overcome with so match conflict internally that when I went to see my medical intuitive none of the remedies that he had been recommending tested strong. On top of this, none of the foods that I had started to use at the suggestion of my health mentor were testing strong. Rice was testing weak. Granted it was likely the amount of rice and the amount of sweet potatoes I was eating. My tendency is to find a way to overcome my persistent diarrhea through finding simple foods that will work I was eating a few foods all day long. There are few foods that seem like I can eat now that satisfy the need of both the kidney stone as well as the diarrhea. My medical intuitive as well began to question whether I had parasites. One of the remedies that he had prescribed it turned out it was specifically for parasites.
I want to start preparing now things I will take two to 11 o'clock appointment with him.
I'm still in a state of being severely tested.
Yesterday I got to the nurse of the kidney surgeon.
The question is what kind of an emergency am I setting myself up for by postponing the surgery that is now scheduled for January 21?
One way or another I'm going to have to work with my capacity to keep growing kidney stones.
At this point my name is goldman and I grow kidney stones for a living.
I need to make the most out of the opportunity to create and make things happen into the realm of self healing, Lurrae said to me. This is why my journey now is called winning back my sacred seed
I wrote this plant your dream blog to help me begin to regain sanity as I am being tested.
As a servant of humanity who desires the best for others I want to find the discipline to do what I need to do to be more a loving person to myself.
I have a need that others benefit as well from the time that I take to pursue truth as best I know it. I hope you can benefit from joining me on this healing journey.
8:36 am
January 13 or 14
"Plant Seeds and Harvest Your Dreams."
As I was writing this a young woman called from PCOM asking about a room. Her name us Kat. These words came out . They describe my work.
I am editing this January 14. This morning Wednesday I woke up in shock alright about that in my next blog.
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