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Dark Night of the Soul Yesterday; Learned from it
Dark Night of the Soul Yesterday; Learned from it
Date: 7/12/2012 11:14:22 AM ( 12 y ) ... viewed 1097 times
GARDEN MANAGEMENT JOURNAL
July 12, 2012
8:45 am
I have been working straight since I got up early this morning. I am about to go to bed for a while. Then, I will complete on the forms I want to mail in to get on the website for the National Heirloom Expo.
I will be up here soon.
SPEAKERS FOR THE 2ND NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO SEPTEMBER 11-13, 2012
http://www.theheirloomexpo.com/speakers/
I learned a lot this morning. Yesterday, as you can read below in my first entry this morning, was a dark night of the soul.
I had three major things I wanted to do yesterday.
I will complete one more of them after a nap.
I AM NOT IN 'CHARGE' OF THE '7.5 MILLION + 2 PETITION'
This is one of the big things I learned today. I am not in charge of the 7.5 Million + 2 Petition. The Beet is in charge. By that I mean the forces that animate me is in charge.
It is truthfully, bigger than the beat of nature. It is the Voices of Past, Present, and Future who are all saying "Grow a Healthier Pizza!"
That is an another metaphor for what needs to happen now, "Grow a Healthier Pizza!"
This is what I learned during the last four hours or so.
There are Forces behind me that want this to move forward and succeed.
My job is to keep perfecting my ability to manage myself better.
This means taking down time.
THis means taking my FES Remedies and checking in for fun and love time.
This means, here is a BIGGIE, continue to clean up and organize.
The fretting does not help.
Yesterday, I was fretting in a big way. See below.
I said I wanted to be more. I said I wanted to be caught up with myself.
I have been behind in massive organization for more than two years. Many of us. We have been in a Radical Shift.
I am Grateful for the Grace that surrounds me.
There are times I need to learn lessons.
Yesterday was one of them.
Channeling the Champaign.
Years ago, I worked with what is now called a Trance Channel. He became very famous. We had a falling out. That is why I do not mention his name on this Plant Your Dream Blog. His wife asked for that. I am sure things are good between us. We came into this life to help each other. Yes. I have helped me a lot. He has helped me a lot.
Behind both of us. Yes. Behind both of us there is one teacher in particular I want to honor now. I have not thought of him consciously for a while. Others helped make it possible for a series of cassette tapes to be made. Numbers have been transferred to CD.
I do not want to get into that right now.
During the night I am channeling a lot.
When I get up early I am rested. I feel good.
It is amazing. I put it this way. Your Enchanted Gardener...YES..tells me what to do.
This is the part of me that knows.
Leslie does he best, but I am very human.
RIght now, I am tired. I learned a lot this morning.
My goal, knowing my leaks, is to keep going.
By the time of the Caravan, I will be in good shape in many ways. YES.
Good enough to succeed at what I have said.
I have until November 6 to co-create the '7.5 Million + 2" Grass Roots Movement who will win this.
I am only coming up with one idea for this success.
There are a ton of others who want to play and are far more inside
the leadership now the CA campaign.
My contribution is that I can hold a Vision really well.
I also know how to Pray in the Garden. That is good for success, the work
I do with Plant Your Dream. That is how I pray.
I want to call OHI today, the Optimum Health Institute.
I want to go there Friday night.
I also want to write a blog about Bumper Authority later,
mainly, once I get the questionnaire done...I am going to have some fun later and do the FM and a meeting.
I saw some magic this morning.
I organize through links.
You can see some of my morning work here.
I know that I am getting help when I find things instantly.
That is how sharp I need to be.
My intuition needs to be razor sharp so I work effortlessly without a break in thought.
I practiced that this morning.
I lost a couple things I wanted to find, but I did not fret.
Then a few hours later, the things--words-- I was looking for found me.
One was the quote from Szekely that I added to the main Grass Roots piece.
Later I will mail out some of these together pieces that are coming together.
The funding will come through as I get sharper and sharper.
Yesterday an important piece came together....two places and some sweet people who will work to keep the EG Mobile in great shape---detailed.
I will write about that later.
That was magical, how I found Rick who signed the Petition.
Rick is the GM at Bumper Authority.
There are a million places in San Diego to get a Bumper fixed...
I was led to a good one for me yesterday.
He signed the Petition...
Bed time...
to do..
two things
add voices of DS and DrB.
9:14 am
July 12, 2012
GARDEN MANAGEMENT JOURNAL
July 12, 2012
4:35 am
I am up early this morning. I had to get up early to capture some wonderful ideas. Yesterday, my head was filled with terrible ideas. I was having a dark night of the Soul.
One of the best ways is have a bad day in 2012 is have your back up external drive go heads up. My did yesterday.
One of the worst things that can happen to you in 2012, is have fears that something is going to happen and you will not be able to pay the rent.
I had that fear yesterday.
One of the worst things that can happen to me is feeling that a 14 year old, the daughter of my sweetheart visiting us, doesn't like it hear, and may want to leave. I was feeling those feelings yesterday.
One of the worst things that could happen to me...was feeling I do not have the money from sponsors and friends to make the Caravan, September 1-10, to the National Heirloom Expo, September 11-13, 2012 happen, that I will never be able to make this happen.
One of the worst things that could happen was having the EG Mobile, my 68 VW Van, The Little Engine that Could, get hit by another vehicle. That happened Sunday at the end of the HIllcrest Farmers' Market. I had to drop what I was doing to get some estimates for the repair of the dents.
(I was wrong! it was in my email box.)
I need contributions to make this happen. In Payment, I will continue to write every day here on the Plant Your Dream Blog. I I will tell you where to get some heirloom Seeds because you are a Sacred Seed and this hurting world is eating for you to Plant Your Dream.
$5.00 to sponsor one mile will help.
One of the worst things, was waiting and waiting for the Quest Speaker Questionnaire from the National Heirloom Expo. Paul said it would be emailed on Monday. I thought it still had not arrived.
I need to see my name among the speakers so I can get on with the next steps of the campaign.
I have an article coming out in the Life Connection. I felt I needed to nail this down already.
Get the picture? That was what yesterday was like!
What did I do about it?
I came home exhausted. I stopped for pasture fed lamb from Hani's. I saw the fig tree was crying for water. I felt exhausted and discouraged. I wanted to check out if the Passport for Mac was really heads up. I wanted to begin to start another computer backup, but, but, I went to my garden first. I took time to do my Plant Parenthood Projects. I carefully unwound the hose. I got pond water for the sacred seeds helping to grow a Healthier Challah for the Jewish People. I watered the pot where my Caravan Success is growing, and more!!!
I called the man who bumped the EG Mobile.
I check to see if the Passport for Mac from WD was really dead. It was!
I plugged in the new G Drive to start backing up.
I went to bed.
THE HISTORY OF PEACE ON EARTH
Through my eyes,
I am recording a History of Peace on Earth,
a History of the Earth and its Human Flowering.
Our Renewed Earth is the Enchanted Garden,
and You, and I, Its Gardeners.--
Leslie Goldman
Your Enchanted Gardener
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