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Be Grounded Today
Regrouping.
Shocking news.
Keep going.
Be grounded.
morning July 30...
Had intense shock
during the night each time
I woke up. FES flower Essences helping
in morning....
My closest female ally announced
last night that she is moving out
due to an emergency she needs to
help. She has been here for 3 1/2 years.
We were dreaming together.
She is one of the closest females ever to
accept me, get me, care for me, love me,
and now she is leaving in 30 days.
Date: 7/30/2010 11:58:47 AM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1071 times
1:14 pm
Called Eva, my niece.
She is at the Convalescent home with
my father and step mother.
in L.A. A new admin there is a friend
of the family. Eva is leaving town Sunday
night. I thought to ask if HB could stay up there
on Saturday. She has an event in L.A.
Will not work.
I made some progress on PROPERTY TAX
figures. I need to get this in place.
I want to be happy with what I did.
Not complete, but some progress.
I need to set aside $143.00 a month for property
tax....I am not doing this now.
I want to get a better sense of what income is now
and what where I stand each month.
Expenses are not in balance with a new relationship
with the Dome. I also have not been on top of watching
the Property Tax and Homeowners Insurance.
NEED TO RE-ESTABLISH MY BOUNDARIES HERE
The last month has been embarrassing
for boundaries for a number of us here.
We had a quest here, brought in
as a coach surfer by one housemate.
We could hardly get her to exit.
Complicated.
We all took care of her.
Shock with best female ally leaving.
We were dreaming together.
I am taking a hit from overextending into community living
concept. Is it possible to regroup?
What is my role here?
No wonder I feel so insecure and unstable.
1:04 pm
July 30, 2010
I just got a bit of a refresh.
I have been in touch with DH,
a very dear friend from long ago
from my Essene Days. Last year the plan
was looking at her to live here, but that never
happened. The Dome is open starting Sunday.
She needs a temporary place while job hunting.
She can help with some clean up down there,
while P is out of town perhaps.
Need to check on Scott.
WHAT DO I HAVE YO DO HERE
NEXT?
morning July 30...
Had intense shock
during the night each time
I woke up. FES flower Essences helping
in morning....
My closest female ally announced
last night that she is moving out
due to an emergency she needs to
help. She has been here for 3 1/2 years.
We were dreaming together.
She is one of the closest females ever to
accept me, get me, care for me, love me,
and now she is leaving in 30 days.
Talking to a dear friend,
an elder.
She is attempting to help
a project we both admire.
I thought to leave my important
work to go up there today,
but things are not grounded
at the other end.
She has left important things too.
She went way out of her way
to help, but the situation is ungrounded.
She has to take care of herself
and her valuable time.
She tells me that,
Things have to take their own course,
sometimes.
Her life is mostly stable.
not the way it is now this morning
as she is attempting to help a dreamer.
My time is also valuable.
I am in crisis this morning.
One of my closest allies here
announced that do to crisis she must address,
she is going to love out in 30 days.
I cannot describe the heaviness I felt during
the night each time I woke up.
It was a profound shock.
I took some FES, Flower Essence Remedies,
this morning.
I better take more.
I made some progress yesterday.
Some are calling for community here,
but this is a long process.
I have been leaving my place of control
to attempt to adjust.
I sense that is one of the reasons I feel
parts of the day that I want to leave here.
This is a very unstable environment for me now.
I am not in control.
What to do next?
I thought I might go up and help the dreamer.
A big part of his dream may be ending in a few days,
but he does not know it.
I better regroup now
and thing of some practical things I need to do
to make sense of what I need to ground myself.
Others can really have their way with me.
It has been embarrassing here the last month.
I need to take my power back.
The best thing I can do now
is attempt to more details
and find completion on what I set out to do
this week.
Yes, dear Leslie, keep going,
we are with you. Complete, as best you can,
with the least amount of stress,
what you set out to do this week.
TO DO NEXT
Refocus on Cox report.
Go to your Financial notes
and take more steps.
We will help you.
Thank you for doing your best.
The Month of May is the time you went on auto pilot.
You need to pay in to main house account phone.
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