Like Romeo and Juliet

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Date:   6/3/2010 3:53:33 PM   ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1091 times

Romeo killed himself over what he perceived to be Juliet's death. I ate over what I perceived was huge rejection. Just moments ago I got offered a slot via email into the training program. Why, why, why do I give up on myself and on G*d? I didn't have to eat over it. I have so many other powerful choices I can make. It IS a choice, life IS a choice, the quality of my life IS a choice. If I can not learn from the example of others' lives, why do I choose to not learn from the example of my own? Why was I so unwilling to not only say "G*d has me where He wants me to be" but to also just dive into His food for comfort? His food for comfort? Because I don't really trust, that's why. I am grateful to just be alive. I am truly relieved it was not worse. Junk food is better than what Romeo chose and if those other alternatives were really and truly at any time in the past 24 hours 'good ideas', I better just tell someone and check myself in. I'm glad I thought of Mexican. I'm not as healthy as I would ideally like to be but not as bad off as I used to be.

I am doing a good job. Death was once an option. It was for my brothers and they took it. Bless them. Some examples I guess I really am learning from. Perspective. It's all about perspective.

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