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Moving Beyond Where Stuck
Revelations,insights, and plan for today.
Date: 8/22/2009 11:18:29 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1917 times
8:34 AM
August 22, 09
Severe leak in the
EG Mobile the vehicle I use
to travel through the world.
Mike, of MIKE"S FOREIGN AUTO
took time to show me.
Drip. Drip. Drip.
I have the HILLCREST FARMERS' MARKET
TOUR tomorrow, and a film tonight,
THE WORLD ACCORDING TO MONSANTO.
I bought seven quarts of oil from Mike.
I wish there was some other way to do this,
like maybe an oil pan that collects the oil
and then I could put it back. Oh that's wouldn't
work, much of the oil is lost while driving.
Drip. Drip. Drip.
Mike says that likely I have a cracked case,
or oil from the coolant. Coolant? No that
wasn't the word?
I am not in a position to be dependent on others
too much now for rides. I have been intentionally
putting my attention on myself around the house.
A lot of other energy has been going into cleanup
the last three days, and before that, either
the Potluck we had here on Tuesday, or before that,
a month working on seeing the light
about how the life is leaking out of us
through events in Washington.
Someone consciously needs to be blogging about
what is going on.
A lot of people are blogging about it,
but I need to add my perspective.
I feel compelled to add my perspective.
We can live in another kind of world.
We can live in the Enchanted Garden.
This is not the morning to be writing more
philosophy.
I have a window of opportunity to clean up
my Space and get ready for the New Year.
Likely, it is the case that is cracked.
Mike will not be able to start taking apart the
engine till midweek, maybe sooner.
This is going to take most of the funds
I have in my account to pay for this.
It is giving me a good perspective
on paying attention to what I have to
deal with in this physical world.
SEVEN QUARTS OF OIL
If I do not constantly check
on the amount of oil and keep my mind
focused on the leak now,
I am going to burn out my engine.
What is the metaphor here?
What can I learn from this
instant of having to pay attention to where
the "Rubber hits the pavement?"
It is the end of the end and these are year
end lessons.
HERE ARE SOME MORNING THOUGHTS
of THINGS I NEED TO DO BETTER
AND INSIGHTS I AM HAVING
HERE ARE SOME KEYS TO WHAT
I WANT TO DO TODAY
Check the oil.
How much did it go down since
driving from Mike's to Hani's for food
and then home?
Clean the EG Mobile
HAVE A BREAKTHROUGH WITH
THE STUFF ON MY BED
Three days for one box on my bed?
I am really put against a deep seated issue.
I have thousands of pieces of papers
either to toss out to get current with my life,
and I took three days with one box????
This is absurd, and yet every time I touch
one piece of paper, I want to file it.
If it is a name, and it has meaning,
I take time to put it in my address book.
I am intensely bored with this,
and so I watch T.V. or finding myself
napping a lot in between.
I need some kind of stimulation.
The Blogging is also getting to me,
and distracting me for the clean up.
It is hard to keep my focus.
It is in some sense enjoyable to be filing,
but I am obsession over this.
REVELATION THIS MORNING
I need to really look at where my energy
is going and how much energy as money
I need to bring in.
It is clear that if I want to maintain
the EG MOBILE, this is going to be
one of my major ongoing expenses.
SET UP ACCOUNT AND BUDGET
FOR THE EG MOBILE
WORK SMART. EVERY YEAR
I NEED SO MUCH FUNDS FOR
DRIVING
I need to be realistic and have an account
just for this expense.
THE HOUSE
This is my major leak
This is a major leak.
This is a constant drain of energy.
It is not easy to live with such responsibility
and so many people.
I have to slow it down and
take an accounting of the time
it takes and how to get the job
done bettter without so much drain
of energy.
This will involve paying more attention
to communication with the members of the
household. There is much unmet needs here.
MY SPACE
This is a massive frustration.
This goes back to childhood.
This has to do with doing too much,
and the pattern I learned from my father
about never being home.
I have not been home in my room
for well over a year.
I have not thoroughly gone through
and discarded things in notebooks
for numbers to many years.
MY HEALTH
I have had ongoing diarrhea for more than
ten-eleven months now. It will be one year come
September 21.
I am having improvement from my current remedies,
but I am deeply frustrated by having no control
over my body elimination.
This has improved some during the last month,
but I am still taking out my frustrations through
eating fruit and other things. I am not cooperating
with my healing process.
What else?
THE MORNING INSTRUCTION
GET a NOTEBOOK TOGETHER
THAT IS CURRENT ABOUT WHAT I WANT
TO DO
I want to play a part in educating people.
How can this be done?
THE FM TOUR IS TOMORROW
and I NEED TO LEAVE AT 4:30 today
to go down there.
What handout do I need?
The Film is about Monsanto...
This ought to be a good discussion.
Hand out blog cards.
I need more EG Members and helpers
around here.
Enough. Put a few things away
and work more at Macro level in my space
today for healing.
DO a little filing, but go clean up the EG Mobile.
Get a better tool if necessary for putting in oil,
so I can do this myself.
OTHER THINGS I WANT TO ACCOMPLISH
Go through the old computers...
Upgrade my Imac.
I was wanting to buy an additional Mac.
I better start with this one.
How much will it cost to upgrade this?
WHAT DO I NEED FOR UPGRADING IMAC?
How long in shop for logic board?
Ask.
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