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How I am Wired
Many deep revelations this early morning,
I am capturing some of the Glow.
Date: 3/10/2009 5:30:47 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1002 times
2:58 AM
March 11, 09
It is the early morning following
my Annual Initiation into Spring.
Each year, it is Winter for me
when I journey to the Natural Product Expo West
at the Anaheim Convention Center.
When I come home, I am in my Spring.
I am sure that this is the same initiation
that many go there at the Natural Product Expo West,
but they may not be conscious of this natural process.
When I went up, the Orange Tree outside our Kitchen
at the side of the driveway we share with Craig and Nuni
and their two children was beginning to bloom.
I cut two pieces to take with me, so others
might see where we are in our natural process.
There were a couple buds at most that were opened.
The rest were round, not yet opened. There were
about fifteen to twenty buds at least on each piece
I cut from the Mother Orange Tree.
That was last Wednesday March 5.
Today is Monday March 11.
Today, on my return here to the Enchanted Garden
Intentional Community, I am being greeted with
an Orange Tree that is in full bloom.
The tree is calling for Flower Essences to be made.
I have not heard from Enchanted Garden Member
REV SHARON TA"AB WUTI for numbers of weeks.
She has not returned my calls.
The Mother Orange Tree is calling for her now
to make essences.
This is not the only tree that is in bloom.
The nectarine is having its moment.
I was still in an altered state driving home.
I usually am after such a deep spiritual initiation.
I was not yet down from the spiritual mountain.
I was in the tenderest of places.
My soul was calling for audience with
Twin Soul/Best Friend, a woman who reminds me
of my female aspects.
I thought it would have been nice to pay at brief visit.
Both PARIS BINGO and ANGELENE were with me still.
It would have been a delightful moment of passing
the healing energy--A rare and special gift to
Twin Soul/Best Friend in trade the important role
she had been playing the last week--holding the ground.
She was in no space for a visit.
She recognized it might have been nice some other time.
She did not realize the Rare and Special Transformation GIft
that was Prepared for all of us.
She would have shifted spaces.
We would have had an opportunity to come down gentle.
She did not see what I am seeing now.
I did not see what I am seeing now.
When I called I was tired.
I told her that my Beet wanted to commune with her Beet.
She too, is a Beet Keeper.
The Archetype was that she would have felt some of
Angelene's healing love and had a moment of respite
perhaps from her human condition. Paris would have
lifted the energies of her home with the Beet song.
Then we would have left.
It is important to know how we are each wired.
I know I am wired differently from most people.
Many people meet me and know this.
These may not get in on the human level,
but some part of them knows they are being
in the presence of someone who is wired differently.
I am surprised and delighted every time I meet someone
who appreciates on some level that I come Bearing Gifts.
That is one reason why the Natural Product Expo West
is so powerful for me.
This show--under the surface--in a Soul level Reunion.
There is Deep Work going on, as many of the worlds of
our being Coalese for a Brief Moment in Time.
People that we dream about come to the Natural Product
Expo West. People who physically live in other locations
come there to meet each other.
I do not say that most people relate to the
Natural Product Expo West the way I am now describing
the Event. I am still in an Altered State as I write.
It is 3:17 AM in San Diego.
FRED, the President of New Hope Natural Media,
on some level he knows what I am saying.
I generally run into him a number of times at the show.
This time, only once. When we met, he was cordial and friendly
as he usual is. I am always so happy to see him. He said
he had seen me a couple times the day before.
He thanked me for coming to the show.
He said he appreciated that I come.
He shared a few thoughts revealing his concerns
about how successful the attendence might be
this year. He was in gratitute. The attendance
this year was very, very healthy as usual.
Of course.
The Natural Product Industry is one of the places
where we can bank on.
Do you get what I am saying??????
There are only two futures for the Earth.
One goes down.
One returns to its roots.
The Roots of the Earth are in Nature.
Those who join together in heartfelt desire
to do Naturally Things on Earth will always be Blessed
with Fortunate Blessings.
Let me say this another way:
If you want to invest in stock now, invest in companies
that aspire to be the Answer to the Problem we have
fallen into.
Invest in Green companies. Invest in people
who are doing things in behalf of the Future Sacredness
of the Earth, of the Return of the Enchanted Garden
to our Beloved Planet.
Those kind of people were every where at the show
this year.
I was amazed how many were looking for Investment
Capital. No less that four or five of the Allies I know
brought this up.
I would ask them how much they wanted.
In one case, the case of RICHARD KATZ,
the Co-Founder of FLOWER ESSENCE SERVICES,
he took the time with me to sit at his booth.
Each year he renews his Membership in the Enchanted Garden Club.
Each year I renew my Membership in FES.
We Trade. It is a very honoring trade.
I gave Richard the paperwork that
does with aligning with KEEP the BEET Media Star
The World's First Talking Beet Plant to do her Magic.
One one side is the Enchanted Garden Membership form.
On the other side, The form says, This is my Seed Dream
that will Root as My Dream Grows.
Richard expressed his need.
I asked him to take a moment in the sacred space
of the FES booth that we Created, to write down the
specific amount of funds he needed for his
expansion. He did as I suggested.
Amen. It shall be Given to him.
This is the Way of Seed Dreams.
This is the Way of Nature.
This is the Way of our Soul.
Connect your Dreams with the growth of living Plant Life.
Our Dreams have always been connected with the Natural
Growth of Living Plant Life.
Do you see that???????
All else is Off the Mark, an error in perception.
2.
How am I wired?????
Do you know how you are wired?
Do you know how the Worlds of Creation
come together and express through you?
This is important work to know this.
This has to do with our Life Purpose
and our Destiny. This has to do with
our health and well being.
Often, we will develop conditions
and pains that are Soul inspired for the purpose
of driving us home to what we need to know,
what we need to become conscious about.
That is why we have pain.
That is why we manifest the imbalances
we have.
What a delight.
On the way home, Angelene, my beloved Housemate
and I stopped to see HOWARD COHN, D.C.
at his office in Costa Mesa.
We did not have an appointment.
I wanted to see face to face this delightful man,
this undercover healer of great proportion
and destiny.
Howard Cohn will always be Howie
to me.
He overstocks with patients
but he took a couple minutes following his
lunch break. He did not take any time for lunch,
but he took a few minutes to say hello,
share a few thoughts, and share a hug.
The time we spent was plenty.
I feel some tears in my eyes.
I invited him down to the garden.
I know Angelene has down that before.
He looks younger that how I would have imagined
him.
3.
How am I wired?
It is very important to know how we are wired
and how we approach Life and how Life is intended
to run through us.
On the way home, I may have caused myself a severe
bill to the EG Mobile. With Grace, I will miss this bullet.
I had Angelene with me. I was feeling many aspects
of her energy on the ride home.
I was still in my coming down from the mountain space.
IF I had been alone, I would have been in the Energy Field
of many of the Adventures I had had. The Angels would have
been carrying me home gentle, even without my visit
to Twin Soul/Best Friend.
There is a part of me that is wired so simply.
My father, Solomon, has this same trait.
We are not always thinking about what we are doing.
We are just serving from a place of heart.
IT my case I serve from a place of heart and Will.
I Promised to get Angelene home so she could get
to a BIKRAM Yoga class at six.
I was pushing it. I had my mind on getting her home.
This was not a day for me to have a deadline.
Not the day after the Natural Product Expo West
Initiation.
So at one point, I felt my accelerator go down to the floor.
The EG Mobile was stuck at 60 MPH!!!
I was not in this world when this happened.
I was tired, and still altered. I was, i Angelene's energy field.
I was also into wanting to get her home.
I did not realize what was happening to the EG Mobile.
It was stuck in 60 without my foot on the petal.
There were Angels with us.
I did not have to slow down for many miles.
Then, as we approached the Eight from the 805,
there was traffic.
I was totally in the mode of wanting to get Angelene
home.
I had my foot on the brake.
The engine started to race.
If I was in my intelligence, my earth plane intelligence,
I would have been kind to the EG Mobile and myself.
I would have pulled over and had her towed home.
No, I did not do that.
I was single focused in getting Angelene home.
Good God, was a stupid thing to do.
The EG Mobile engine was racing, and I could see
smoke coming out the tailpipe.
How very unkind I was being without
realizing in my tiredness what I was doing.
I was totally in my emotions, and some kind of panic
state. I did not have my wits about me.
The engine was making a horrific loud noise every time.
I braked now. I needed Angelene to tell me to pull over.
I needed someone else to intercede.
I was like my father in that moment, with
no brains on my head.
As I came close to our house, I turned off the engine
and rolled into the curb. I was starting to have diarrhea.
I immediate called MIKE at MIKES FOREIGN AUTO,
to assay the potential damage.
I sensed I may have burned out my engine.
I sensed this little Lesson was going to cost me around $4000.00.
I hope I am wrong.
One time, the last time, I went to RANCHO LA PUERTA,
I did the same damn thing.
I had Paris with me. He was irritated, wanting me to get him
home so he could go to Yoga.
What is my Karma with BIKRAM Yoga??????
We were attempting to cross the border at Tecate.
There was this incredible long line. I would have never
chanced this if I were alone, but I was with Paris.
WHOLE FOOD MARKET had underwriten that trip
to go the do an exhibit at World Environment Day
at an event sponsored by the Foundation La Puerta.
I was again tired. The next thing would have been
to relax at the Ranch. No, I was committed to get
Paris home for his Yoga.
The ride out of Tecate was uphill. There was
tremendous traffic and I was burning my clutch.
Paris was helping me, but I did not really have my wits
about me. I was chancing it.
I lost. I needed a new clutch after that.
It cost just about the same amount of money I got from
Whole Foods.
When we came home today, my first stop was the bathroom
to change my clothes. I was talking to Mike at the same time.
He was calming me down. I will tow the EG Mobile in in the morning.
Hopefully, all my money will not go to pay for this error.
Angelene was at my door. She needed my key so she could go to
Yoga. I blurted out, my sense of what I had caused--an enormous
bill in attempting to get her home. I was not making her wrong.
She thought for a moment.
Then she said, something like,
Why do you Self Sabotage yourself???
How incredible.
She is right.
The whole experience of attemting to live
with others here in community is Self Sabotage for me.
It is the finest way possible to stay in hiding and not fulfill
all I can do with my life.
Have you ever tried living with others????
I live with a handful.
On my God!
Sometimes I think that living alone would be so much easier,
but then, if someone does not attempt to learn how to live with
others, how will we ever get home????
Paris never came home with us.
He went off to LA. The last thing he said,
was that he was going to honor his music.
I felt upset, in retrospect that he did not come
home with us following the initiation.
I see we have a meeting on the board to discuss
the Foundation tonight.
I will not head the Foundation/Trust.
That is the work that Paris can do.
There are things I am learning right now
about how I am wired.
If I am going to make a success of living in community
here--and I do need others to help fulfill--a shared destiny--
boundaries and saying NO are essential.
I have been succeeded more than ever at that.
A person has to have boundaries to live with others.
There it is.
I am seeing more now how I am Wired
and what I need to do to take care of myself.
I hope this learning does not cost be $4000.00.
I will know in tomorrow when I have the EG Mobile towed in.
4:05 AM
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