Blog: Vibrational Health Village
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losses

a comforting blog to share about releasing, ritual, and connecting with the earth

Date: 12/16/2007 4:36:23 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 4013 times

This is something from dynamic-polarity's StumbleUpon blog that I thought was quite excellent. Inevitably, we all will have losses in our lives, and losses really do not get easier to handle as you go along, either. Further, sometimes we think more about our losses at holiday time, because the holidays tend to remind us of beloved people (and pets too) who aren't with us physically anymore. Yet nobody much wants to listen to anyone else talk about their losses at holiday time, as everyone seems to have enough holiday stuff of their own going on!! Therefore, I found this writing to be comforting in processing my own losses, which tend to come back to trouble me moreso at holiday time. Very helpful indeed. Read on...and thank you to dynamic-polarity!! The Dec 13 date link in blue below is the link to her StumbleUpon entry/page:

"Dec 13, 11:38am

Dancing in the Desert

I have been going to Las Vegas for over 25 years now. Now, many people question my sanity to do so, although that is probably not the only reason for their doubt ;-)

The allure of Las Vegas is not the bright lights, or the gambling, or any of the other things that most people associate with Sin City, for me, it is a place of memories, a place of family, an oxymoron, as it is a place of both great joy, and great sorrow.

I love the desert. To me, it is a fascinating place. Besides it's sheer beauty, it is a reminder of how fragile life can be..and also how tenacious life can be...life holding on to life under the most extreme of circumstances.

There is a place just outside of Las Vegas called Red Rock Canyon. To me, it is a very sacred place...a place that holds tremendous significance in my life. It is a place of great joy, and many happy memories of my family, and my parents, as we always went out there for a picnic day.

And yet, it has other meanings to me as well. I scattered the ashes of my mother there 6 years ago. I scattered the ashes of my father there 4 years ago.I scattered the ashes of my husband there six months ago.

Every year, I have made a pilgrimage to this sacred place. I have a spot that I go to, where I look upon an expanse of desert, cacti flourishing in the extreme heat, and I marvel at the red hills of the canyon rising from desert floor. The clouds trace the contours of the hills...it is a magical place for me.

Each year, I have gone there, looked at this beauty and all that it represents, and I think about all of the wonderful th ings in my life, and I do a "dance" in celebration of those things. This dance of gratitude is something that grounds me. Dancing in the desert is a sacred ritual.

Some years, that dance has been very difficult to do. It has been hard to find those good and wonderful things in my life when times have been so dark and difficult.

I could not go to Las Vegas after Tom died. I was dead inside. I could not feel joy, or could not summon one ounce of gratitude..for anything. I could not see any light or beauty in this world. I could not dance in the desert.

By chance, a conference was being held in Las Vegas, and I decided to go. I did not think that I could possibly go to Red Rock, I could not conceive of dancing in the desert. But when I got to Las Vegas, the pull of this sacred place was strong. Deep in my heart, I must have known I would go, for I had brought some of Tom's ashes with me.

When I went to my sacred place, even though I was scattering the ashes of my dear Tom, I was able to do my dance. My heart was filled with gratitude, as many good things are happening for me. I am emerging from the ashes of my former life. As I released Tom's ashes, they blew away and melded in with the desert sands.

Somehow I was comforted by this. He, too, had returned to this sacred place. I felt like he had been freed. As was I. And I was grateful for his love, the love we shared, the son we had raised together, our 28 years together. He will always be now part of my sacred place. It was a way to honour him, to keep him forever, and also to let go. It was a very powerful moment.

I've been collecting Peter Lik photographs I bought my first piece there ( there is a whole other story about that!)..It is a piece called

"Almighty"

What is amazing about this picture is that is is taken from my sacred place....the place where I dance in the desert.. ... I am no longer dead inside. I can see light and beauty in this world. I have been thinking about all the things that are wonderful and good in my life..and there are many. Today I am in my living room, dancing in the desert with extreme gratitude......"

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