Hi Leslie,


I hope this doesn't fall under the category "unwelcome", but have you ever considered using MAP?

I have found it is a wonderful adjunct to anything else one does to be whole (heal), especially suited I think, to those among us who are 'sensitives'. It stands for medical assistance program which is a very dry name and not nearly indicative of the nature of what it's about.

Here, here's a link to read about it.

http://www.perelandra-ltd.com/Excerpt_W36.cfm

I'm not connected to Perelandra in any way--I just borrowed this book from my ex some years back, when he wasn't using it.(you need the book--but you can keep it and share it for life)

I have used it in some challenging times, a few years where almost every day felt like an *expansion* experience. Meaning: always being asked to feel beyond the limits of one's ability, and imagination.

and I think we're all in that place now...What MAP can do is give you that deep healing time where you relax and feel that your burden ifs lifted. It also satisfies
a longing for a kind of Divine intimacy. One is intimate with one's 'group'.


If you decide to look into it:

Please note-- "white" in the context of describing the group (or team) that energetically works with you, refers to the totality of all colours, not 'white' as is Caucasian.


Another thought I had was about alkalizing. You might like to look at a blog by Invincible that describes a few inexpensive ways to alkalize the body. It sounds to me like many of your challenges might relate to excess acid.

anyway-- a few thought for you. I don't know the extent of your health challenges but MAP might be able to serve you well.

One of the amazing things about it, in my experience, is that first what had to be dealt with was a buried feeling of unworthiness. I think I can speak broadly this way: it's almost impossible for people to believe they could be worthy of having several beings of light be attentive to helping them, 'calibrating' them, *and* hearing all their concerns. It's an amazing experience truly--very humbling and empowering, to meet the unworthiness issue and then watch it dissolve.

It's also deeply resting.


for your consdieration then,

all the best,
Chiron