Hello again, Kerminator.
I see once again that you have missed my point, though I can see that you mean well.
Firstly, I have amounted to something. I successfully overcame my emotionally depleted childhood`s mindset, and attendant scars, and achieved a college degree in electronics, which also comprised machine code programming and calculus level math while working a full time technical job, and raising a family. I have worked alongside some of the best Electronics Engineers in the country, earning 10 times my salary. Yet I started that job in a shop floor assembly type position, and carved out a career that spanned 10 years. There is no self pity here. Merely my summation of life`s adversity.
Understand why I am doing this.
For me, this is a therepeutic exercise....many times, I have read that one should write things down, in order to gain perspective on the issues concerned. So, this is my log, open for all to see. All my shame, all my battles, all my inner feelings, so relevant at one point in time or other, to me, laid bare.
I will draw strength from so doing.