Yeah, I see them in the movies, too.. have you noticed you look at the sky on the screen first, then start paying attention to the plot?
I'm angry because when I was naive, I used to look at the sky with such joy.

I'm also angry because I can't just let go of it or get over it. They can only affect you if you allow them to, that goes with everything, but it's difficult to block out something that's always in your thoughts [and, unfortunately, what you're breathing in and have to experience whenever you look up]. This is a very convincing dream, and fear is the polar opposite of love. Why can't I just let go of it? Why can't I just stop caring?

I guess it's fear that I'll never get better when there will always be toxic sky, if anything.

Love,
Papillon