We're all different, & you sound like you actually have more willpower than I do. I have tried juice fasting on several occasions, but I keep quitting. So I figure it's not for me right now. But I want to be healthy & lose weight, so I have instead been working on going raw. You can really work out some good replacements for crutch-foods. It's easier for me because I really hate the feeling of entrapment that a fast cloaks me with. I feel like a prisoner when I try to fast. I guess that means I'm not quite ready. But raw food is much more enjoyable. You lose weight & gain health & still get to eat. Maybe you should think about modifying your approach for a while, until you feel really ready to go back on the fast. Just a thought. Either way, good luck to you. I know how it feels to doubt yourself. I have issues with confidence & they will destroy you if you don't come to terms with them. But it sounds like you're working very hard toward having a healthy mental state as well as physical state, so again, good luck to you. I know you'll be successfull!