I so so so want to be drug free. I found your post inspirational because it made me look at my situation from my wife's point ov view instead of my own. I also have a 5 year old son. I love them both so much. I own a successful local business. We can pay our bills. Have holidays. A nice car. etc. No one would ever think that I am actually a cocaine addict I finally told my wife last week about it She was shocked. But she didn't leave me, which is what I feared most. I've now found my self lyeing to her already about not taking it. I can't stop. Why would any body with the happy life I should have risk it all for a high. I fear the end is nye.