Dear Lady: We pray that God may continue to bless you!
Many people have the attitude of " What they have given up for God; now it is up to Him! "
Yet they continue in their sin(s); waiting for God to do something...
God has offered the Ultimate Grace, with which we are to apply Faith in the form of action(s) and /or decision(s).
You appear to have over come the danger of being "Double minded" which is to doubt both God, the mistrust one self! Fasting and prayer have put you in a place of tears and mourning for sin and then repentance! Remember when we are humbled God will life you up!
Stop by some of my blogs; on life as we should live it...
Your brother in Christ