It is easy to do miracles around those you don't see every day but Yahshua could only do minor miracles in Nazareth. Findhorn or the Enchanted Garden, where two or more gather and decide to live in each other's space, our flesh offends other flesh. It is just the way it is with people. This is why you need to create a non-profit so that your Findhorn can exist after you are through with it. Then you can come back when your energy is right for it. Don't abandon the enchanted garden until you are sure there are those who will continue what you have begun. There are many spirits outside of human ones depending on the Enchanted Garden. That is not to say it will not continue after you are gone- but it might help your legacy if you put some things in place like a board of directors and volunteers to insure the vision you began with continues or changes with the loving intention as its focus. It may very well be that
there is not enough time to put these things in place though. You may have to have to live and let live. The fae music from some other lily may be calling you to parts unknown. It may also be your time to move on. The earth is groaning for leaving. There is a darkness moving across the land. If you must move on, take with you the light the Enchanted Garden gave to you and leave some in place to give it a chance to
carry on. Sorry for the unsolicited advice. I have a feeling that I need to move too. I don't know whether the feeling is to save my neck or just the feeling that animals get before an earthquake or the feeling a dog gets when the hair on the back of their neck stands on end- when something frightening is happening. These are strange days these. Leslie my friend, follow your bliss.

Y_h Bless