It takes a bit of courage to accept the healing we have received. So don't be dis-couraged. (Don't loose your courage.) I have been healed of cancer to. It was a real wake up call to me about how I was living my life. Lord I would love to have one of these huge bacon cheese burgers that I see on t.v. Oh to smoke just one more ciggie. We are what we are when we are alone with God, nothing more and nothing less. Sorry about your family.