Peace Raddish:
Your tale sounds all too familiar...only mine started in early childhood. Please, please, please concentrate on healing starting at your energy source (some call it spiritual). It isn't about weight. It's about addiction and hiding from self. Food hides fears. I'm definitely not one to judge because I've been through it, please don't replace food addiction with weightloss/scale addiction. Try to work on ridding yourself of all addictions. I've given up on judging myself by the scale...it's useless. I judge myself by the divinity I reflect...understand? I personally think it's best to focus on being healthy which includes --exercising, eating properly, and being free in the mental. Focusing on weight deters us from dealing with what is real.