- Saturday, Sept. 15th: Starting FAST!! by lauray
17 y
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Blog: Lauray
I just wanted to announce my fast on the forum. I am positive-affirming this fast and as someone else is doing journaling every 2 hours my feelings. I have thi sin a paper notebook but should probably post it all here -- that would be a great document.
I should probably do fasting affirmations every 2 hours too.
I should probably use this space to concentrate and doa real honest pros and cons list for fasting 8 days. People really change when they really examine pros and cons, I read.
Cons/Fears first.
Con: I won't be able to get high on food. No oblivion or comfort.
RESPONSE: BUT I WILL ONLY MISS IT FROM TIME TO TIME -- NOT CONSTANTLY.
RESPONSE: I CAN GET USED TO ANYTHING AND FASTING I WILL GET USED TO ALSO.
RESPONSE: THIS IS SUCH A DESTRUCTIVE AND SLEAZY OBLIVION AND COMFORT AND HAS DESTROYED YOUR LIFE. YOU DO NOT REALLY EVEN WANT IT!!!!! YOU KNOW IT IS WRONG!!!
EVEN AFTER A COUPLE DAYS OF FASTING IT IS STILL WRONG! YOU STILL HAVE THE DESIRE TO SLAM FOOD THEN - THOUGH IT IS DIMINISHED - BUT IN ONE DAY IT COMES BACK, IF THE FAST IS BRIEF, ONLY A 1 OR 2-DAY THING
Fear: I will get so messed up and fragile and it will take forever to be able to eat safely again.
RESPONSE: NO - what will happen is I will get well and it will not be scary, even if I go without food for a long time. I have recently experienced this.
Con: No relief, emotional release.
RESPONSE: SEE ABOVE
Pros:
Artistic Productivity
Financial Security
Willingness to Work
Reliability with others & honesty
Physical strength and my health back
Now I am going to inventory how I actually feel about starting this fast.
I am not really confident. I am getting the image of just quitting after 60 hours, the sort of minimum . Why try to do more? I am asking myself sadly.
I AM AFRAID TO TRY REALLY TO DO 8 DAYS
I DON'T REALLY HAVE A CLEAR PLAN FOR HEALING. WHAT HAPPENS AFTER THE 8 DAYS? OR THE 60 HOURS? WHAT IS THE PLAN? HOW WILL I STAY WELL AND
I DON'T EVEN WANT TO BE WELL. IT IS SCARY.
Oh, God, I am too tired to finish this inventory. I want to try later. I did not sleep last night, not enough. I kow I shoudl rsolve this. I seem to be in a process of getting0ready-to-fast. And it seems Ihave to build up alot of readiness to feel really committed.
I am going camping tonight and so this is a great distraction and will get me through at least the first 2 days.
Then day 3 is going to be a problem. I DO NOT want to tell myself that. I think I jsut need to tell myself: no! Day 3 is going to be SO EASY! I am going to WANT to fast 8 days. Of course I am going to do it.
But I just do not feel this. good for me knowing adn admitting how I feel. But how can I get out of it? how can I really decide to fast?
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- Fasting too! by wackygrl
17 y
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| Its good to see someone else starting a fast! We should be support for eachother. =) I'm on day 3, so not a ton of experience going on, but it does get easier, and those O goodness what am I doing no way I'll ever be able to do this thoughts do get fewer and farther between. I know you can do it! =)
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- Re: Fasting too! by lauray
17 y
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HI! I did not see your message until today!
Thanks for commenting!
What day are you on now?
It was helpful to characterize the "o Goodness what am I doing..." thoughts.
I am experiencing intense anxiety. I am detoxing from very toxic "sugar free" frozen yogurt and a really frightening bout of depression from consuming that. Woudl this make fasting harder? More of a detox? Probably. But I think it iwll be bearable.
Please let's support each other! Can you e-mail me? Please reply! I am on DAY TWO now. I am 6 hours into day two. Above all I am trying to convince myself that I need to and can fast longer -- past the three-day mark.
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- I think by #35289
17 y
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maybe your aren't ready. It is a really simple and easy process, you are way over thinking it. Maybe you should read some books about fasting so you aren't afraid. You should be more afraid of what food actually does to your body.
It is NOT SCARY at all!! You will feel better!
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