- Does anybody want to talk..? by JeSuisButterfly
18 y
2,747 2 Messages Shown
Blog: Balance
I am so lonely!!
I had a fever last night - even though the house was 56 degrees I was sweating. Sleep was torture. I took Lapis' advice to just 'ride it out'. It really does help tremendously instead of exercising fear.
I'm so so so happy to report that I have absolutely no inclination to eat whatsoever. Actually, food is a bit repelling. It's a wonderful feeling to not obsess over food!!
I'm also proud to say that it seems like I am done with TV. I never watched it too much in my teenage years, preferring books over the seizure screen. I turned it on this morning for the noise, but my interest was quickly lost. Perhaps if the rain lightens up and the lightening subsides, I can take a trip to Austin and read. I'm feeling quite nauseous though. Does anyone know how to ease that..?
I've discovered I am quite tidy when I am 'living alone'. I was careful to put all of my things away.. dishes, laundry, ect. To pick up after myself, to be mindful to turn off the lights when I leave the room and whatnot. It's only been one night, but it's made an impact.
One full day to go.. I'm feeling trepidation.
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- One Night by sweetlife
18 y
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If one night's made that kind of impact, think of the extended impact.
In practically no time at all, you can become a complete recluse, a hermit.
Maybe then you can rejoin society in your own terms, as an fully formed functioning healthy adult... if you so desired. Then you wouldn't need the approval you're so desperately seeking in others, because you have won your own approval.
Praying for you.
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